Almost every morning for the past two weeks I have woken up either with a panic attack or on the brink of one. My life is extremely busy, I work at an opera office, teach oboe lessons, play in a symphony, and am getting ready for life as a wife to a man in the military. He has recently started going out to the field a lot,and where we were used to seeing each other every day, we're having to deal with seeing each other very randomly, maybe a few times a week. He's also deploying soon and I'm trying to prepare myself for that. He told me that I need to find a counselor or psychiatrist to deal with my panic attacks, because he thinks they're very serious and he wants to help make sure that I'm dealing with personal issues that he thinks I haven't really gotten over (when I was younger I was sexually abused, and I was raped numerous times in college, and had mentally and physically abusive boyfriends and friends.)
Some days I go an entire day just feeling like I'm on the brink of an attack but never actually have one, other days I wake up and have a complete full blown attack. I have psychoanalyzed myself and feel that for the most part I am happy with myself and my life and achievements. Small things set me off though, like not seeing my fiance for a few days, or someone yelling at me, or thinking about failure.
Any advice?
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