People with bipolar disorder, which type of episode do you hate the most?

Question

A depressive episode?

An agitated depressive episode?

A euphoric manic episode?

A dysphoric manic episode?

A mixed state episode?

Im sure there are more, but i have only been through these. I think the worst are depression(it just sucks to be alive) and dysphoric mania(the anger and guilt kill me inside)

Actually they all suck really bad except for a purely manic(euphoric) episode where i at least enjoy living and get a lot done and make loads of friends and money.

So which is your worst where you either loose control or have to be hospitalized or just dread that type of episode ever happening again?

Answer 1

Well, assuming i have bipolar (the pyschs are in disagreement) -

mixed or dysphoric manic. Gods... makes me want to tear myself apart.

(i think mixed episodes actually refers to both dysphoric manic and agitated depressive states)

Answer 2

Unfortunately I have suffered mostly from dysphoric manic episodes and mixed state episodes in recent times with shorter  agitated depressives. So I am on tons of meds that don't seem to be doing anything although I do have to give them more time too. Every day I wish for euphoric mania, which may seem silly to those on the outside looking in but it's better than how I feel each day. I haven't had a true euphoric or at least a long lasting one for about 4 years. Sucks big time.

Answer 3

Aggitated depressive - Its bad enough being depressed, but being aggitated with it.Thats shear h**l.

I"ve not had a dysphoric Manic episode thankfully....

Euphoric manic is great at the time however I've been known to take risks.

Mixed states also are really horrid cos you dont know what to think or feel...

I havent been hospitalized, mostly cos my doctors don't actually care about how Im going. I'm worst in my depression, though if not stopped by friends or family I'm likely to take a risk too big somewhere along the line...

Answer 4

Mixed.  That is absolute h**l for me.  That is where I have been a true risk of killing myself...that is where both my suicide attempts happened and where i ended up hospitalized and diagnosed.

Answer 5

Id have to say mania and rapid cycling with insomnia.your mind wants to keep going but your body wants to sleep.