ok thought i should tell you i have a severe phobia of spiders.
when iwas younger i would scream for ages over the tinest one. then i learned about tarantulas and thought all spiders were evil and were going to plot to kill me. stupid lol. anyway when i got to a teenager id get them in my room sometimes especially in the summer and i would freak out and o all shaky call my dad and shout at him to kill them. i wouldnt be able to go back into that room for atleast 2days even getting my shcool colthes would be a sturggle.
one time there wz a big one on the wall where my bedroom door was shut i was in hysterics and locked in there for 2hours because i was home alone.
now i get really paranoid and cant sleep at night, i will check the walls and floors eveery corner consatntly beofre i neter any room and befor ei sleep, it is starting to take me an hour at the VERY LEAST to get to sleep now. 4hours at the most. sometimes ill be sitting and theres shadows and i keep thinking their there, and i also sometimes see them but when i blink theres nothing there, any dirt on hole in wall and i think its one of them. im just really paranoid. ive told my parents bout the wall checking and the trouble sleeping but they dont pay much attnetion. its just a silly phobia but its kinda taking over my life in a little way well im fine during day time usually but at night i cant relax im always on edge. i cant even sleep in the dark i cant walk round at night unless theres a big light on because thye just control me.
wtf do i do??? im 16 in 8weeks time
sometimes i think i can feel them on me and so im always feeling my clothes.
this is mainly at night but i do it during the day more now, not so much in school, but i do worry alot.
i was up til 6am last nite because i had trouble sleepin
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