Please, please help me.......

Question

Do i have a mental disorder?

ok, i have been wondering this for a long time now and i am a little scared of the answer.....so here goes. i sometimes have very disturbing thoughts, like evil ones, like picturing someone killing someone in my family but then i argue with that thought in my head....i dont know how to explain it.

its like the thing i am most afraid of, i am picturing in my head...then i have to tell me that its not gonna happen and its a stupid thought.

i am worried because i have a very strong history of paranoid schizophrenia in my family and also manic depression. i have already been to the docs about anti depressants but she said i cant have them as we are trying to conceive #2.

i would never ever hurt anyone, its not like voices telling me to do something, its more like images in my head of sick things.....in a way its like my head is saying 'look at this'.

is this just because my worst fears are of my family being hurt or do you think there is more to it???

thank you in advance

and my spell check isnt working so sorry for the spelling mistakes.

i would just like to add that i dont think about these things all the time, its when i am alone with my thoughts, like when i am falling asleep at night. i sleep with the tv on now cause if i am in a silent room i start to think alot!!

thanks again x

Answer 1

No you are just probably going through a phase maybe? Just think happy thoughts, everytime you have an evil thought think of a happy thought right away, the same with dreams. I use to have  evil thoughts but i just try not to even think over the last one i had, or when the next one is going to happen. Just relax, maybe get some anti-depressants. Or just take a longggg bath and RELAX.

Answer 2

At the very least, you should be seeing a therapist to help you redirect your thinking and the images you see. Imagination is great, but you really should have control over your thinking. Also, in terms of being afraid of medicine, if you are having health problems, is this really a good time to have a child? If you want to have control over life and be sure that things do not escalate, I think you should see a psychiatrist or a doctor you trust and explain what has been happening. It is great that you can identify what is happening to you now. Please consider: what if you got to the point where you could no longer tell what was real or imagined? I am not saying you will or that you are doomed. But it does seem that you are having some difficulty controlling your thoughts and it is causing you distress. Try to find someone who will help you to focus and deal with the impulsive or intrusive thoughts.

Answer 3

It is good for you to have a second opinion and try to go to a doctor who has the expertise on what you are experiencing at this time and get some good advises and medication...And if you believe in GOD? It is worthwhile to seek some good advises from a pastor or priest.They will hear your problems and will tell you to forget all about the negative thoughts and pray and pray to God for peacefulness in mind through meditations and active participation during healing sessions.  

Answer 4

i think more people than would ever admit it have fleeting thoughts like these. i do.

as long as you realize you are having the thoughts and know it's wrong to actually follow up on it, i think you are in good shape.

my worst times are early in the morning after my husband leaves for work (like 3:30am) i have these horrible ideas in my head of him getting hurt - so yes, i would agree with you that the thoughts could be a reaction to your fear of your family being hurt.

i would call you normal.

good luck with the #2!

Answer 5

you might be. you need to go to the doctor and have a mental evaluation done.

Answer 6

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Answer 7

Okay well am sorry to here about this and i think you should tell someone and ask for help.

I don't think you are ill but i think you have a disability, so i think you should go and talk to a caricaturist (dunno how to spell it :S). I think this will help you to control them and stop you having them.

But for the mean time i think you should keep thinking happy forts and stay with your family so you know nothing is happening to them because you are there with them Okay.

Hope you get better .

Cyaaa