I have been a resident at a mental health adolescent unit for the past two months, i was put in with a case of severe depression.
I was diagnosed by the doctor there with an eating disorder, about three days ago, and it is really bothering me, as i had never thought of myself to have an actual eating disorder. Funny eating perhaps, but not a disorder.
These are the reasons he used to diagnose me, and to begin treatment for it:
I have days on end where i hardly eat, not because im starving myself, just because i am not hungry, and then suddenly i will be starving, and eat and eat and eat.
Often during these "binge" times, i make myself sick afterwards, sometimes to ease the discomfort of my stomache, sometimes through guilt.
I've gone through phases of using laxatives, something i did not admit to my doctor, but is probably important
I get obsessed with certain foods. For example, when i was little, i ate a marmite sandwich three times a day, for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Then one day just hated them, and havnt eaten one since. I have done this with thousands of different foods/meals over the years.
I am very weight concious, very self concious.
I am five foot 10, I weight 9 and a half stone, wich, in my opinion, is far too much. I hate certain parts of my body, and i try to cover them up
I can wake up some days, and get all dressed up, but then look in a mirror, and start to cry. I will instantly change into a baggy jumper and shorts.
I suppose I am preocupied with food, i am obsessed with it, even though I dont eat much of it.
It plays on my mind very much.
If i eat even the tiniest bit of lettuce, i will be convinced it has made me put on stones, and i have to get it out of my system
either by hours of excercise, or making myself throw up.
I hide food, and wont eat infront of other people.
It sounds kind of. bad when i put it like that
but. i mean. im not skinny enough to have an eating disorder
i ate a lot today,
and i mean. i dont know.
im 13. its just...well to me its just teenage weight obsession.
can you please tell me your opinions.
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