Lately, things have been looking pretty bad. I've missed some work b/c of illness & trying to gt stuff done for school. I'm in college and about to start in a month. I did take off tommorrow b/c of a doc's app. but I have decided to go when it's done and work the full shift. I think I've messed up things at work now. I feel like c**p. I don't have any friends. 2/3 of the summer has gone by and ppl haven't contacted me. This is a testimony to my life. Some of my fam have stopped talking to me b/c of stuff that has nothing to do with me. My bff? has been treating me like dirt. I'm 21 & don't drink (my mom's an alcholic) I strongly considered getting drunk yesterday to take away the pain. I have nothing to offer. Lately, I've been so irresponsible. I'm on meds & going to therapy. I feel guilty and sad. I feel srry for myself & want others to as well. I know that's awful; I hate that. It's so much going on right now, and I want the world to tell me I'm sh*t; it's becoming a hobby/trend.
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