My husband and I have been married for a year and couple months, we've been best friends since middle school and got together on and off for years. At 20 years old I got married to him when he asked me to while he was in military bootcamp. At the time, we was only a couple weeks back together after broken up before so we didn't really think about our relationship before this kind of commitment. He was being stationed in Vegas and it was my first time moving from family and I was not comfortable moving over there with alot of debt and doubts on my shoulders and not having any money saved up for the worse that can happen but he still convinced me to drive from Florida to Nevada because it needed to be done right away. Let me remind you, I told him he should go over there first to get things situated before I come there so we won't have problems, meaning find out about apartments, jobs, etc.. We moved over there in February and til this day I don't have a job yet even when I looked so hard to get one. We had to find a place close to the base and even though the military pays for off base housing, we still have to pay out of pocket and its already putting a hole in ours. For the past months, I've been through so much between our financial issue and personal issues. Since we got married I can say I'm not as into my husband as I use to, meaning the s*x is bad, we lack of communication, he's very irresponsible, insecure, judgmental and he makes dumb mistakes and decisions. He tricked me one time to get into my phone and he read my texts as he pretended to talk to his mother. I can't say I'm innocent because one time I had a real close friend of mines send me texts of sexual things to my phone and I let him because he was making me feel good but on top of that my husband did somethign stupid as well, like going on a community site looking for a s*x partner to be friends with benefits and then lie and say him and his friend was drunk but yet he didnt come home with no sense of alcohol or any sign of intoxication. My family doesn't like my husband at all, they call him a failure, they want me to come back home to Florida and they want me to get away from him because it will make my life better and to get back on track. When I say getting back on track, meaning all my bills I had control of is needing to be out of collections. I sacrificed alot to make a life wit him and it all went to h**l because I even dropped out of school to come over here to put up with so much. I don't know where my marriage or my life is heading but I love my husband but not like I use to because as of now, we can't talk without arguing or even having a good conversation with me getting bored. Please someone help and give me advice on what I should do. I'm not ashamed to say this but he's the main guy I've been with for a long time and there is other guy that I have interest in, please someone help....
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