Please help? I really need it!

Question

okay, so I need to start out by saying that a few years ago I almost died of an eating disorder.

but now I am 17 doing pretty good and trying to get my life back together.

I am currently enrolled in drivers ed.

and I am VERY jealous of my teachers body. I envy her SO MUCH. she is beautiful!

I am on the higher end of healthy weight (24.7 bmi)

I am 5'8' and wear a size 11 jeans.

I have been struggling between losing weight the healthy way and losing it with my eating disorder tendencies. so I havent really gotten anywhere

so my question is:

can you help me? with my jealousy, how to keep myself straight and anything you could help me with?

like at the moment I am struggling with wanting to throw up my bedtime snack or not. and I cant really excersise it off now cuz its late at night

please help!

Answer 1

Isn't your dietitian working on you with losing a small amount of weight? Tell her that you are desperate, and you don't want to go back to your old ways. For her to help you out, so you can maybe lose a bit faster. But I am sure you look great, and you don't need to lose anything =) I am sorry that you are jealous of you driver ed teachers looks. But you can't allow that to trigger you.  There is always going to be someone who is thinner you, me.. and everyone. It hard not to compare- but you just have to be strong- and know that you look great the way you are too-- like you probably have bigger breast and a butt.. right? lol. STAY STRONG <3

Answer 2

Stay calm and relax get a drink of water.  Do not throw up your snack.  Do not exersice get a good night sleep.  Keep eating in a couple days start exersiing.  DO NOT STOP EATING.  I know people that have died because they have thrown up so many times and have just stop eating.  Drink lotsd of water.  If you need to talk email me at [e-mail]

Answer 3

It does sound like some therapy couldn't hurt, it would help you with the anxiety, etc.  Try and appreciate all the wonderful things you are, and the fact that you sound not at all overweight.

Answer 4

Hi,

you are 5`8 and wear size 11??? wow i must be a cow lol im 5`5 and wear size 11. You should see yourself as beautiful!!!! Your teacher or anyone else for that matter cant help how they look. But jealousy is a natural feeling. Its ok to be jealous :) As for throwing up, I had a dear friend die doing that!!!! She needed a surgery and they couldnt operate because she had threw up so much she had ate a whole in her esphagus!!!! And someday u may want children too, So please love yourself for who you r and love what you look like in fact 5`8 size 11 is a perfect size!!!!!!

Answer 5

Well, you said that you're "doing pretty good", but yet are still exhibiting all the behaviors of someone who's still in need of some help.

The best advice anyone really can render, and you should heed, is to get some more help.

the illness is one thing, but you have to change the behaviors that lead to the relapse of the illness.

See what I mean?

Best of luck.