So im 16 years old, and i recently split frommy long term boyfriend of a year and a half, we where so close, best friends and nothing could come between us, I had been really il over the last year or so with a eating disorder and i sturggled to cope with it, but my ex stuck by me through it no matter what he was great to me coudnt ask for more. towards the end of may we was going through a rough patch and he decied to leave me he told me hehad fallen out of love with me, which is fair enough even though i am feeling so much pain right now, and i miss him beyond belief and cant do anything or imagen him having anyone else in his life, I feel hearbroken beyond belief. Two weeks after we split up i found out i was pregnant with him, So i decided to tell him alot went on between us he told me he wasnt going to be there if i have it, as he didnt want it and if i had an abortion he would support me. i then had to tell his parents they took it ok at the first when i told they i possible was going to have an abortion, When i told them i was keeping it everything changed and they where mad and stopped all contact, lately things have gone so wrong i feel like killing myself to be honest i feel alful inside, i had a misscarriage a week ago and am struggling to cope, I text my ex and told him and he never answered me, We only live 2 mins around the corner and he is best mates with my brother ( Who isnt being very loyal ) So i see my ex all the time. Plus now i have had a huge arguement with my dad ( Who is sperated from my mum ) Because he thinks i lied about everything because i never wanted him to come to the docs with me because i was scared of letting him come with me because i was ashamed, And everyone in that house thinks im lieing, im at then end all my friends have abandonded me and i dont now what to do.
Due to my brother and my ex being best mates my ex will come to pick my brother up in his car everything i see him pull up i feel sick, He never comes in the house but it hurts and i start shaking and break down, Iv told my mum and she says just get over it!! move on.. i simply cant, Everytime i see a baby my world caves in i feel alful, i have no-one there, or onone that cares, I hate the thought all my exs family hate me, I just wanted them to support me through im at the end i dont know what to do, I just want someone to talk to..
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