Please help me.....?

Question

i have lost my boyfriend (not because he doesn't love me but because he had to leave (it's complicated)). his life is also in danger. i've never felt so lonely and desperate in my whole life. (and i have felt very down on many occassions). i didn't realize how much he meant to me, but my heart is literally broken. i feel like i have nothing. i have anorexia and have allowed it to completely take over. that night, for once, i appreciated those voices 'you're fat, worthless, no wonder he's leaving', because i know they'll always be with me, and self starvation is the one thing i'm good at. i'm no longer fighting it, in the past 3 weeks i've eaten a small bowl of pasta, i get up in the mornings to starve and cause my body pain, that's become the only reason. i don't feel like i can ever move on from this. i love him so much, and i'm very worried about him also. i should've never have gotten involved in this emotionally but i did. i've never been so desperate. what can i do to pick myself up? anything, i've lost hope in living... without my eating disorder i would've killed myself. fact. i couldn't stand to be truely alone.

Answer 1

Nobody can answer this cry for help on here.  Please go and get some professional help NOW.  See a doctor or go to the nearest church anywhere.  Talk to somebody.  Please.

Answer 2

you need to get some help, speak to a councillor

good luck hun

Answer 3

eat something then see a doctor then a shrink

Answer 4

it is always so hard to be alone!! my first opinion is try to get some help with the eating disorder, then some counseling for the loss of your boyfriend.  we will always worry about the ones we love, that is a fact of life, but we don't have to let it rule our lives.  you are not fat, you are perfect the way you are because god made u that way and he only makes the best!!!!  try to find something you like to do and concentrate on that and keep him in your heart, but try not to let him rule your life.  life is too short for us to loose time.  we need to get out there and help the ones we can.  my prayers and thoughts are with you and god will lead you!!  just trust and believe in him.

Answer 5

You've got to realise that in the future you will feel different and you're current emotional state is temporary. Time heals.

Answer 6

if you continue like that. he is going to back and you will be dead. dust youeself off and take care of yourself until the man return, because he will.

Answer 7

Girl please calm down!!! I know how its like to really love someone and then be left... ok he wasnt in danger but thats his problem not yours.

Anorexia its complicated have you searched for help?! like doctors or advise lines stuff like that. Listen when I had a melt down I was 16 and i was like that until I was almost 18 what helped me mainly was REIKI it's a sort of meditation and self healing technique. It isnt easy being alone but starve your self wont help in anyway, it will just make things worse. Please seek help and regarding mans has much has you love him you have to let go... its not an option its what you HAVE to do.

Answer 8

just say calm ... eat sensililly

and maybe see a doctorr ?

Answer 9

Wow it sounds like you are in mental anguish. I'm sorry you're in such pain. Its hard for someone on the internet to help someone. It would be a good idea to see a doctor as soon as possible. If you don't have the money you can look in the phone book for a free clinic and you can make arrangements to see someone there. Or contact social services for info on finding a doctor.

Please tell someone close to you how you are feeling so they can help you through this. Dont try to do it alone. Take care and I hope you can find some help.

Answer 10

First, EAT MORE FOOD. fORCE YOURSELF IF YOU HAVE TO!

Staving just makes things even worse. Pain, weakness, and it makes you emotionally unstable.

I can help you out if you tell me why he left you.

Answer 11

LADY BUG don't get down its hard and i know your hurting. try try to take better care of yourself. i have a friend that i have known for 42 years. he went some were else and i haven't heard from him for 5 years now. i pray all the time he will be back. and guess what every 3 to 4 years he is. he  tells me he is mixed up he tells me he travels. so when your man comes home smile and he will some day believe me. just pray. also get on yahoo and keep talking to who ever it helps and it has helped  me. be good god bless you and remember he will return when he is ready