Please help what's wrong with me?

Question

Sometimes I get really hyper. I feel I could run a long distance. I don't have sugar. I just get naturally hyper. I'll feel like that for a few hours. Then I'll turn really sad. I'll put myself down and have thoughts of killing myself. I tell myself everyone would be better off without me. Sometimes I think I'm so pretty and can do anything I want. A little later in the day I'll hate myself and feel like a freak. This has been going on for years. I don't have money to see a doctor. I'm really poor. What should I do? I'm 17 my family can't afford help.

Answer 1

Bipolar cycling occurs much more slowly than this. You will be manic for at least a week, then cycle back down towards depression and stay there for at least two weeks. There is such a thing as a mixed episode and if this is what you are having it will be severe enough to interfere with your daily activities. If the symptoms aren't severe and don't interfere with your ability to function then it might be normal teenage hormonal changes. But I can't make that judgment because I don't know you. You should talk to a school counselor or call the county mental health for a referral to a doctor who works on a sliding scale. You could also talk to a pastor at a church. A lot of them are also trained psychologists or counselors (just pick one who is in line with your beliefs).

Answer 2

Thegirl is right that bipolar usually means slower cycling. - Days or weeks to months. Though there's supposedly such a thing called ultra rapid cycling that's thought to be much faster. A mixed episode as officially defined has to be very severe. But that doesn't mean that there couldn't be mixed episodes that don't "officially" meet the criteria (look up dysphoric hypomania or bipolar spectrum).

Still, it doesn't sound like typical bipolar. Borderline personality has mood swings that last hours, but usually they're not from low to hyper, they're from low to normal. It could be just teenage mood swings. It could be that you're under a lot of stress and your emotions are bouncing around. Just having mood swings doesn't mean there's something wrong with you. *But* if you have thoughts of suicide you definitely need to talk to someone.  

Answer 3

I would most definitely see this as bipolar disorder

If you have insurance, they will cover the cost of your medicine.

You will have to eventually get treated for it, since it will effect your whole life and business life as well.

Answer 4

You can afford the internet but cant afford help?

Answer 5

It sounds like you are depressed. If you can't afford a doctor or pills, I don't know what to tell you. But, everyone has a value in this world. Someday you will play the part God wanted you to play. If you kill yourself, then you'll never see God and heaven; you will be sentenced to eternal damnation. That's not good. God wants you to be alive. God doesn't make mistakes.

Your family doesn't want you dead either.

Answer 6

bipolar.

call a psychologist.