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Please please read this. i need serious help! my ocd is out of control with my eating...i just want to cryyy?

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I don't know what to do. I always do this. I am diet obsessed and whenever I feel like I ate too much food (even if it's healthy) or whenever I feel like I ate something that doesn't fit into my diet (again...even if it's healthy) I have to start completely over on a different day. And when I mean start completely over, I mean start completely over. I feel like I need to get a fresh start on my life. I re-organize my room and my closet, I get rid of all my make up and buy all new make up, I get rid of my shampoo and conditioner etc., and buy everything new. And I have to wash my sheets and my comforter the night before I start my new eating plan. The biggest part of this "mental cleansing" is that I have to scrub my teeth and brush them a million times with different toothpastes and I have to floss them a million times and swish a million times to get rid of what I did to myself. It's like I have to un-contaminate myself from eating badly in order to be able to start again. I can't go on with my life unless I can purify myself first. I'm filled with so much anxiety all the time. I always plan the day I'm going to start over. For example, I messed up today and I'm going to start over on September 5. That day seems SO far away but I won't have enough money to buy all new products until then. So for the next week I'm going to be dying to start over again. I'm so miserable and I want to cry for doing this to myself.

I spend soooo much money buying all new products for when I "start over." I also have to buy a new toothbrush, new dental floss, new toothpaste, new EVERYTHING. New lotion, new lip balm, new make up remover. I literally mean new EVERYTHING. And I cry whenever I throw away all of the wasted products that my mom buys me that I don't even use for more than like a week before I start over again. It's so sad. I don't want her to know that I do this, so that's why I tend to spend a lot of my own money on the stuff. One of the worst parts is the teeth cleaning though. I feel like I have to clean my mouth to un-do the stuff that I put in it.

HELP ME I'm so anxious and nervous and I need somebody to tell me that it IS possible to start a diet without doing what I do beforehand. I just need someone to tell me that what I do is crazy and unnecessary.

Does anyone know if there's a name for what I have? I know I have OCD but I would really like to find someone who has this same problem. It's ripping my life apart. I can't ever focus on anything when I'm thinking about this--which is ALL the time.

I hate my life!!!!! Please help!!!!!!!!! I'm only 17 and this is only going to get worse :(

P.S. I'm not over weight, I'm just really obsessed with eating healthily and being thin and dieting.

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  1. What you're doing is "crazy and unnecessary".  It's not the end of the world, you just have a lack of self control.

    I couldn't begin to help you, and I'm sorry you feel that way.  To tell you the truth it sounds pretty bad and you might need some professional help.  You said it yourself, it's only going to get worse, and you have to start somewhere...


  2. It is common. It can be treated with medication and therapy.Please read this link to understand what's going on. The forums are  monitored the information is from specialists in the field. It's a NY Times web site, and I have received good advice from that source all the time.  

  3. Jesus Christ came to give us new and abundant life.  Ask God the Father to forgive you for letting your appetites rule you and ask him to give you a new start.  Start reading the Word of God, the Bible, and find out how many scriptures there are that deal with eating.

    He is faithful.

    Forgive yourself for shortcomings.  It is OK.  The LORD removes our sins as far away from us as the east is from the west and buries them in the sea to be remembered against us no more.

    I am sooo tired or I would add more.

    There are lies from the devil that tell you that you must or can be perfect.  Find Jesus Christ in the Word of God and you can have the authority to makes these lies silence.

  4. If you find out let me know, I used to do something very similar, but I've gotten better over time. If I s***w up on my diet, I always need to start over the next day by cleaning and reorganizing everything and vowing to wear different clothes, act differently, etc.

    I don't understand it either, but therapy can help a lot. You need someone to help you let go of some of these habits. What you're going through is probably more extreme because of your OCD, but overall you may just have built up habits that are hard to control. It will take a while and go against every single fiber in your body not to buy new makeup, etc., which is why you probably need a professional to help you through it. What's going on right now is obviously not working for you, so you've got to work on it getting rid of it.

    Point is, you're not alone, you can get through it, but I would suggest seeking some kind of professional help for at least a little while.

  5. You definitly suffer from OCD, and it is definitly out of control and ruining your life.

    You dont have to cleanse your body when you mess up.  No one can be perfect 100% of the time, no matter what the issue is.

    You should go see a psychiatrist and get help with your OCD.  They have great medications now, which will help you overcome the OCD.

    I am on Prozac and Klonopin for anxiety and panic attacks, and OCD.

    I am a completely different person now that these meds are in my system.  

    You can e-mail me at any time, if you need/want to talk, or have any questions.  I know what you are going through.

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