Pleaseee i need an outside perspective on this problem that is ruining my life!?

Question

When I was little, i was the most EXTROVERTED person EVER. and i would not shut up! -_- and everything was good until my Junior year of high school. My dad cheated on my mom, my mom and I had a violent relationship, my mom moved out and finally I moved out as well. I dunno, but I was SOO ANGRY that year towards EVERYONE and I really freaked people out with how much rage I had in me.

I got rejected by EVERYONE for the first time in my life and I felt like I shouldn't talk because it would just make another person think I'm a freak and hate me... (sorry this sounds so depressing) but yeah. And I developed selective mutism where I can't speak in public without getting anxiety like MAD. :(

And now I can't make friends because whenever i say a WORD i freak out and I get depressed very very easily omg! Please leave an outside perspective on this! Bless you who do! This problem really really sucks :(

Answer 1

You need to get some professional help before your problem gets any worse. You sound like you still have (and rightfully so) some rage concerning the situation. You can find a mental health counselor for little or no money by calling your local mental health center, health department, hospital, or local government. They will tell you who to call. Don't wait, you may just need to talk to someone who can listen attentively and guide your rage to help you heal. The longer you wait the worse you will feel. Good luck to you.

Answer 2

lsn, umm, i'm not an expert or anything but what does good is, talking to ur parents about this, as hard as it sounds and i know that it is hard but it's the only way, if u dont want to tell ur parents, then have one of ur friends who u used to have, someone u can really trust about this, someone u feel close to!

I've developed in myself an anger management remote contol, i know it sounds weird, i call it that cuz, i also get mad and YELL while talking to ppl so i Volume myself down, I've a stop botton for crying, i've a play button to remind myself of the few good memories i have!

I've still some anger in me, it shows when i talk, i talk always in a violent way, so i've learned to watch myself and think about what i say before getting it out of my mouth!

I know it's hard, took me 2 years to get this right!!

I'm 15! but belive me, i know well about this!!  

Answer 3

You have multiple types of psychological disorders, 1. Generalized anxiety disorder, 2. Social Phobia, 3. Panic Attacks, and then some Depression disorders which I don't know much about. Possible Manic Depressive, and bipolar. I recommend you go to a psychiatrist. Hope that helps. I have bad anxiety too, I know how you feel. You can and will get better but you need medication. Your brain is sending wrong chemical messages and is not producing enough or certain chemicals, these things can all be fixed by antidepressants and anti anxiety meds like xanax, librium, and Non benzodiazpene medicines. Hope that helps!  

Answer 4

You know, don't you, that we can always made different choices to improve our own lives.  Because you went through, what you did, doesn't mean that the rest of your life has to be what it is now.   You have to love and like yourself for a start.  You are a unique individual who is on this earth for a good reason.  You have to find what this reason is.  What is your dream.  What would you really be HAPPY doing.  Not just a job, but something that would give you joy.  Start taking your thoughts out of the past AND the future, and just try concentrating on this moment.  It is when we are thinking of things in the past and worrying about things in the future that we get stressed out.   Why do you care what another person thinks of you?  Why should that be important in your life.  You are angry, depressed and disliking yourself, because there is nothing that you are doing, that you feel good about.

You are important on this planet, so start thinking differently.   What is your dream?  Start going after whatever it is.  Forget about the past, the past is just that, the past.   When I look back on my life I see times that I thought I would never be happy again, but life went on and I continued trying.  Years later I can honestly say that all those miserable things that happened to me, really put me on the right path, where I am now.   Happy, an adult family with grandchildren. I can honestly tell you my dear, that I have gone through worse than you have and have come out of it O.K.  If I can achieve that, so can you.  Look at people like Oprah.  Have your read her biography.  Black, very overweight, abused, sexually and emotionally and now, the richest and one of the most influential woman in this world..  Start to realize how important you are. Listen to this, written hundreds of years ago:-

YOU ARE A CHILD OF THE UNIVERSE

NO LESS THAN THE TREES AND THE STARS

YOU HAVE A RIGHT TO BE HERE

AND WHETHER OR NOT IT IS CLEAR TO YOU

NO DOUBT THE UNIVERSE IS UNFOLDING AS IT SHOULD.

DO NOT DISTRESS YOURSELF WITH DARK IMAGININGS. MANY FEARS ARE BORN OF FATIGUE AND LONELINESS. BE GENTLE WITH YOURSELF

IF YOU COMPARE YOURSELF WITH OTHERS YOU MAY BECOME VAIN OR BITTER FOR ALWAYS THERE WILL BE GREATER AND LESSER PERSONS THAN YOURSELF.

Remember you are a Child of the Universe

Taken from Desiderata.

Peace and love

A grandmother