Pointless to get help?

Question

i think its pointless being assesed or get help.

As i can't talk about things that go on in my head well at all, and i just end up cracking jokes about it or just smiling.

No one believes me then, no one knows how **** i feel and how much i don't feel i can live, the paranoia i have is driving me mad, i don't talk to anyone, and i don't trust anyone, and my moods changing around so much is making me sick, i can't sleep, i can't eat.

My councellor is shite, she keeps offending me, i tried for once, to talk about the suicidal feelings and she snapped, looked like she was about to cry and said how 3 of her family did suicide, and its selfish. You can't talk to anyone! she then said ' do you want to go to hospitol?' ffs yes of course everyone loves hospitol where people go to die (sarcasm)

and then do you want to be anorexic and go to hospitol, wtf is she on about?! just to let you know, i have NO eating disorders or whatever!

so i think help is pointless! no one will believe me will they?!

Answer 1

I say you should get some help.  If its hard for you start small use a friend to vent.  Sometimes a stranger is easier to talk to in that case get a good shrink.  You need someone to help you see that suicidal feelings are a part of life but there is so much more to live for.  I have felt suicidal before, had a lot of bad things going on in my life back then and I just thought about all the good things I wanted to do before I die and how I would make the ones I love feel.  Even venting in a blog or just writing letters about how you feel to yourself and trashing them after will help you feel some what better.

Answer 2

lilymay just looked at you profile .From what i can see you must be a fantastic person you have had loads of best answers. So you must be very patient to help others, while you suffer turmoil yourself. This time you need help I seriously hope you find it. life has its problems i cannot say anything to you as it will sound patronising. However please be positive , I really want you to get the right help. I hope there is someone who knows the answers for you on here. XX  

Answer 3

Your present counsellor seems to have unhealthy boundaries, you need to find another one. I've been where u are, and it is a struggle. With no easy resolution. I found meditation, and trying to find, and pursuing meaning helped me. Get another therapist, and try to find a support group ( there are groups for all issues ) In a support group you'll meet others who feel as you do, and there is a strength in knowing you're not alone.  I hope you find your peace, M.

Answer 4

if you get yourself a councellor without baggage then yes,she sounds very unproffesional,the idea of councelling is to help you open up and dig deep to try to resolve and understand and deal with issues yourself,not to judge and attack you,hey i do believe you just opened up,keep it up and good luck.

Answer 5

change your counseller she is crazy:)

Answer 6

1) Get a new counsellor, yours is obviously not helping you. A counsellor should be there to listen to you without judgement and that is not happening. I think you should report her too, you were just being honest about your feelings and she had no right to treat you in that way.

2) Get help. Believe me, there is no pointing wasting your life feeling low and unhappy when there is so much to experience. We all only get one chance so make the most of it. Go to your GP, make he/she understand how YOU feel and don't take no for an answer. We all have the right to feel happy and secure and you should never be afraid to ask for help, we all need help sometimes. You could also try calling a help line such as The Samaritans: http://www.samaritans.org/. They are available 24/7 and are always able to listen to your problems and offer advice, no matter how small or trivial it may seem to you.

3) You sound quite young so I really think you can beat this. Good luck!

Answer 7

You need someone to be paranoid to. It helps.

Answer 8

Sorry to disappoint you but I think both you and the councellor will live long and happy lives.  Of course it is after you start.

"The past is never the future" is a good motto and for my part "Blessings to you for your future"

Answer 9

You should change councellors. She should not be bringing in personal feelings into your sessions.

This woman's an awful councellor, she's not helping you at all. Not every councellor is like that, for every bad one, there's a thousand good ones.

Go to your doctor and ask to see someone else.

Answer 10

I don't think it is pointless nor do I think it matters much if they believe you. Getting help would be all about you talking things out.  When you try to explain feelings to someone else they often become clearer to you. Good luck and remember very few things fix themselves.

Answer 11

Change counselors, it doesn't seem like the one you have wants to help.