Possible OCD? how to change this on my own? PLEASE HELP?

Question

i HATE being touched by other people, i cant stand the thought of getting intimate with other people because i cant stand the thought of kissing someone else and having my lips coated in their dirty saliva. im very hostile when people touch me even if im happy as larry.id rather sleep on a bed of nails than someone sleep in my bed!it makes me feel sick thinking about someone rolling around in my bed.

when i was younger my mum liked to re-arrange my room and i used to throw proper tantrums, i still get really pissed off when she does it. i dont like having people in my room cz they have to touch EVERYTHING and its annoying. but then im being a hypocrite cz according to my parents i cant leave things alone and have to touch everything even though i think their just getting pissy with me. i like having my stuff in a certain order.

im bothered about diseases and stuff like i wont use a public toilet cz i think ill get an illness. i dont like being around people when coughing even if their hands over their mouths cz i worry about catching it.

if i get something in my head like i need to do ... or i really want ... and i cant get it out of my head until i do it or have it. i have a habit of biting the inside of my mouth and when i bite my nails if it is the slightest uneven i keep biting until ive gone too far then i MUST do the rest of my hands. sometimes when i see someone or im talking to them ill randomly have thoughts of kissing that person or hurting them. sometimes i like to count things like how many steps ive taken or how many times i chewed my food.

i have worst case scenario thoughts like if im in a car i often have thoughts of us crashing and me dying. i have alot of random thoughts. i have certain ways of doing things like how i eat certain things.i have kinda anxietys about people and when i obsess over something i will probably sit there for a couple of hours checking it over and over, like emails.

ive been doing since i was about 8. my mum and aunt say im wierd cz of how i am with people and touching and stuff. some people have called me heartless and cold before eventhough i CAN be a really nice and loyal person.

it sounds like OCD to me some pepole have said germophobia or summin like that. but whether i have it or not how can i sort out these behaviours without seeing someone or getting help from people i know? i dont really want them knowing that i think i have a problem.

sorry the question is so long =S im super sorry

Answer 1

my son has it too. See a Dr. You might need meds. He is doing well working in a deli in a food mkt.

Answer 2

I just sneezed on the screen, sorry...

Seriously though, if you set up an intake eval. with a psychiatrist, he or she will spend 15 minutes asking you questions related to what you've told us.  You would then have an initial diagnosis and perhaps even sample medications - if you have okay health insurance you may go from what you told us here, to fully functioning the way you want to in a few days.

You wouldn't ignore a broken bone or blurred vision so don't ignore a slightly debilitating problem.

Good Luck.

Answer 3

This isn't something you can just 'think' yourself out of. There is no easy cure for OCD, no 12 step program, no series of exercises that you can work through and - zap - you're cured. You need help from a THERAPIST.

There is no shame in asking for help when you need it. If you were shot, you'd go see a doctor right? If your house fell down you'd go and find a builder, if your sink started leaking you'd go and see a plumber.

Your brain is no different. You need a specialist to help you. Please go and seek some help before this thing ruins your life and poisons any relationship you could ever have.

Answer 4

"Immersion therapy"--change your routine. When the world doesn't end, you'll get better gradually.

But, yes, meds are best. Anti-depressants are largely safe.