Possible mood disorder?

Question

so... to sum it up my moods are rarely stable. i go from one extreme to the other often. either feeling awesome, angry, or sad. i find myself getting upset at minor things that i realise i probably shouldnt, i over react to minor annoyances, but once i get set on it it eats at me till i seem to make things worse, until i find a way to distract myself from it.

i work hard at keeping my mind occupied because when its not i seem to cause myself problems. im a recovering addict and used to self medicate to even myself out, but now being clean and sober im having difficulties handling my moods.

its really strange to me because one minute ill be a certain way to people who care about me and the next minute wonder why things are happening. for example... ill get mad and tell someone close to me to **** off leave me alone etc... then when they do i wonder why they did? then i wonder why i said that and felt that way in the first place?

i see these problems but i do not want them or like them, but cannot stop just because i recognize them. the emotions tend to take over.

anyone know what might be wrong with me? ive been like this for as long as i can remember, using drugs was as close as i was able to come to feeling normal. but i dont want to do that anymore due to the fact that i dont want that kind of life because there wasnt anything good about that either...

im confused.

Answer 1

You sound a LOT like me.  I have a mental health history.  My diagnosis are Bipolar Disorder, Border Personality disorder, Anxiety, and some other things not needed to reply to this post.  Now, you can not both be Bipolar and have a Borderline Personality Disorder.  Doctors disagree on my diagnosis.  However most say Bipolar disorder.  They all agree on the rest of my diagnosis.  I would strongly urge you to look up both Bipolar and Borderline Personality Disorder.  

My moods switch like the wind.  My mate says the doctors are wrong altogether and that I have "multiple personality disorder", she says it HALF jokingly, but to express how strong the mood swings are.  

If you think you have a problem; no one knows YOU better than YOU.  Do a little research on "mood swings, personality disorders, bipolar and extreme natures", then seek medical attention.  If you have medical coverage seek medical attention immediately.  If not, CALL YOUR LOCAL CITY HOSPITAL, ask them for a referral for free immediate mental services in your area.  They can test you, and treat you for free.  Almost every major city offers this service.  

For a long time I thought I was crazy.  Would drive myself crazy trying to understand why I couldn't relax.  Everything set me off.  Every one annoyed me.  Everyone was stupid/ignorant to me.  I didn't want to be bothered.  Then.. I'm the friendliest person in the world, want to go do and try anything, talk to anyone, then, switch again... and this can happen several times in a day or in an hour.  I hope this helps..

Research, then assistance. Siren.