Recently, I was having an intimate night with my potential partner and we were discussing the possibility of how we may want to pursue a future relationship. The mood of the conversation was intimate, safe, serious but in no way harmful or gave reason for defense or need for a learned defensive action. What concerns me, is that while the conversation was taking place I started to tear and withheld emotion while conveying the emotions that I was feeling. I do not believe that I have a depressive mood disorder or suffer from depression, though I am not a trained medical professional and cannot diagnose as such. I am normally not an emotionally available person, due to the nurturing factors of my childhood, I am working to be more emotionally available with my loved ones. Yet, another factor that I believe may be a potential contributor is that I am coming up on a years sobriety and many of the members of the fellowship that I belong to say that the weeks before a year sobriety may be emotional. So my question is why did I have a somewhat, unnatural for my personality out break, and should this outbreak cause concern?
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