I recently turned 20 and for almost the entire year I have been feeling awful. I wake-up and the first feeling I feel is depressed. I may get happier as the day progresses but I'll still get that sinking feeling. I don't have very many friends (I hung out with my friends a total of 4 times over the entire summer) and I usually spend my nights watching TV alone. When I was home over summer break I found myself interacting with my younger siblings and getting into things they like (like watching Nickelodeon, making accounts on kids sites, listening to the Jonas Brothers)... and while it was fun to bond with them, I felt pathetic because I was acting like a 12 year old. Now I'm at school and I'm sitting here and just want to cry. I'm sad that I'm away from home, but then when I'm at home I feel claustrophobic. I just don't know what to do... I wish I could just be happy and go back to being a kid.
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