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I am on the edge... again. I have attempted suicide multiple times before, including failed overdoses and hospitalizations. I am sick of failing... I want it to work this time. Yet, the rational piece of me wants to make sure I am making the right decision. Emotion-mind is screaming to swallow the two-weeks worth of meds and slit my wrists... wise mind is long past dead. Why should I and why shouldn't I? Truly, what is there for me in life other than awkward and painful existence, ultimately ending in an untimely death?

I am 17 years old, diagnosed bipolar I, "on" multiple medications (but stopped taking them 2 weeks ago) and seeing doctors regularly. I am just sick of all of this ****! help, please

Answer 1

Hi.  I have bipolar.  I am 43 and also on multiple meds.  Your body is still changing.  Puberty is difficult for everyone, but especially for those with bipolar.  When it is over, your moods will even out some.  By then, you also should have found meds/dosages that work well w/o significant side effects.  In other words, you are in a really crappy time of life.  It does not stay that way.  Give yourself a few years before you decide it will always be this way.  It won't.  It does get better, and I don't just mean a cycle to another mood state.

And call your pdoc about restarting your meds.  (Okay, that was the parental lecture part.)  Then be adament about dealing with the depression.  (That's the fellow bipolar part.)

Answer 2

Wow, where shall I begin? First of all I am or may not be seen by you as just some random answerer giving you advice but not really knowing how you feel or having been in your shoes. I am 25 yrs old and have been diagnosed bipolar I since I was 19 (but believe me its obviouse I have had it for longer) when I found out I was bipolar i had my first and only attempt. it was with medication and after 2 days of my body not responding I finally and miraculously awoke. I have been struggling since then and was recently hospitalized for suicidal thoughts. I know you think that there is no real reason to live and that you want a fail proof plan, well I felt the same way but believe me there is so much to live for, i know that and truly believe it even if I do have my doubts ocassionally , the worst thing we can do is go off meds so, i recommend to talk to your dr and be honest and let them help stabilize you, things will seem different once you are on meds. I am going to email you with a link to a website that helped change my mind and a person who helped save me. hang in there kiddo!!

Answer 3

Hi there,

I am 35 yrs old and I am bipolar 1, I have been since i was 12, thats when i was diagnosed. Let me tell you If you dont stay on your meds , then your gonna continue to feel the way you do , not everyday but most days. you really need to take your meds!!!! With the help of family, doctors , your meds, and i lean on the Lord above too, you will feel better! Its not easy being a teenager as it is and i know from experience that its harder when you are sick, and thats what it is its a illness, just like diabetes or kidney disease ,it s not your fault , those people have to take meds the rest of there life too, to stay healthy , and strive for normal lifes, well so do you and I and anyone else that has bipolar. As far as why you should or shouldnt die, i cant think of 1 reason you should , but i can tell you all kinds of reasons to live!!!! your family, friends, one day you will want kids and will  go on to have them, they are worth it all!!! trust me you have a good life waiting for you!!! So get on your meds and get well !!!  God Bless you and I wish you the very best in LIFE !

Answer 4

life sucks, no way around that. just try to stop thinking about the killing yourself ****, its in your head. The way I justify not killing myself is there are a few things on earth I like, and I have no idea what its like when you die. So if you kill yourself it might suck worse then it does now

Answer 5

Someone said something to me...They were quoting something to me when I was feeling extremely depressed. It got me thinking. Maybe it'll help you too.

"God never puts obstacles in our lives that we cannot overcome."

It is true.

Answer 6

u should get some help and think on the brighter side of life instead of thinking about killing ur self trust me i know depression is not fun i had thoughs of suicide 2 and it turned out to be a funk i was in. its called dread... anyways if u just do the things u love than get help u'll live a happy life and u can look back at this and laugh.

Answer 7

Hey, awhile ago I had the same mindset as you. From like last September to about this March I had depression without being treated. My life was fcked up, I had no one but myself to think things through. Being kicked out, ignored, rushed. My life was moving so fast but I wasn't going anywhere. Till this day I feel the exact same way (I wouldn't mind running into the middle of the street right now). But I am not going to intentionally kill myself. I have waited this long through h**l, I can take more. My character on life has changed drastically within one year, you wouldn't believe. I'm here right now, with the same fcked up mental/medical problems, but I haven't thought about the suicide thoughts as I had then. We are here right now. Life is meant for everyone to fulfil. I dodged every opportunity to end it all, but I made it, even to my surprise. Cause I dreamed that everything happens for a reason, whether it's the easy living of many others around us or the character building h**l we are going through. We (both 16/17) has a whole lot left of life on our plate. This is just the beginning. I know 25 years from now, I will realize this, right now, were the best years of my life. Why? Cause this is the time when I learned that no matter to what extreme, life is beautiful.  

Answer 8

it is illegal to assist in suicide so asking for advice from someone could get them into legal trouble

Answer 9

You bloody moron. Do you seriously think that depression will last forever? Grow the fukc up and stop doing stupid things.

Answer 10

as a friend of a person who committed suicide, i will tell u what i may have not been able to express to her for lack of experience, then.   look to god for guidance and you are the only one who can control the ouycome, but if you think of it this way, all you have to do is hold on one more day, look for  the song i believe its from wilson phillips, hold on for one more day...the song came out after my friends suicide...good luck and god bless, let the doctors help but look into other doctors and other sources for help..you are not alone!

Answer 11

What happened to your medications?  Did your doctor help you come off of them, or did you self medicate and go off on your own?  You sound like you're in a lot of distress, and unfortunately, taking a stranger's advice on yahoo answers won't be much help.  However, I can tell you that it's a big mistake to go off your medications without consulting your doctor cause you can go into a serious relapse and have worse symptoms.  Antidepressants and mood stabilizers have like the worst withdrawal effects; especially if you abruptly stop taking them.  You're young and have so much to live for.  You just need to find the right type of help for you.  Best of luck.