Gp tomorrow... help!!?

Question

im waiting to see a psychiatrist.. suspected depression..

im going to see gp again tomorrow

i know this sound silly since im 17 but im scared!

last time he got annoyed with me cause i wouldnt answer some of his questions!

my friend isnt here so i have to go alone... my other freinds dont know and are annoyed with me cuase i get angery really easly over nothing! i cant help it! i cant control it!

and i dont go out really at all.. which is annoying everyone cuase i just sit in my room

im tired and i cant sleep at night so i spend most of the day in bed...

dont eat much witch annoys my sister! but i dont feel hungery!.. and i feel ill if i do eat when im not hungery!

plus this world looks too unreal like im not here im dreaming and watching evryone else! i dont get why ppl can see this as real!! i just want to wake up from this!

i dont go out at all.. just sit in my room i dont want to be around ppl i just want to be alone.. plus i cant stand being around loads of ppl!! if they all move or talk at the same time it scares me!! at school i used to sit outside by myself most of the time...

the dr doesnt kno most of these things and i dont kno how to tell him! im rubbish at explaining!

cause my friend told the school nurse now the head and deputy of my school kno what happened and i cant face going back to school!

i dont kno what to do every day i want to die more and more!! i really want to try it again! but i promised my friend to see the psychiatrist 1st (atleast a yr)even though i know noone can help me! i dont kno what to tell him tomorrow!

my mums sending me cause i dont eat or go out..

we went to gp before but it wasnt the one i was told to go to.. cause he was on holiday.. but that gp said he couldnt do anything..

i dont kno how to or what to tell him!

Answer 1

Please let the doctors help you. You are depressed. I know because i suffer from depression, and i can relate to everything you've said. Sometimes just talking to someone can make a huge difference. Plus, you're just way too young to feel like this, you have your whole life ahead of you. Good Luck and feel better soon :-)

Answer 2

Tell him what you just wrote and that will break the ice.

No need to be scared he will help you.

Good Luck.

Answer 3

hmm..You are definitely not silly my dear.You are tensed.

You seem to be very sensitive, and are trying to intricately look at your surroundings

You are just deeply assessing yourself  and your own behaviour. Do not be that judgemental. You know most of the people go through such a phase sometime in life, may be for a long or short time. Just relax. Regain your confidence.

The best would be share your needs and worries with someone you can trust... and yes you need to start trusting people.

There are many cases when a case of suspected depression goes to a psychiatrist, but frankly we are the best psychiatrists for ourself. Recoup yourself.... You are too young to need a doctor. Stop worrying about what people got to say or think. You are the king to yourself and anyone can make a helpless out of themselves. Help yourself, Trust yourself.

Surely , see your psychiatrist but remember you can help yourself.

Take care

Answer 4

Maybe you could write it down and give it to him on a piece of paper? Perhaps some notes of some sort? It might help when you're there.

You should try to talk about it with people but you should only talk about it when you feel ready to do so. If your gp/psychiatrist is trying to make you talk when you dont want to you have every right not to tell them. They shouldnt pressurise you into talking.

You could start by explaining to them that you feel like you dont want to be around people and that you feel scared when you are around them. perhaps talking about it would clear things up a bit in your mind as well as helping them to diagnose you?

You could speak to them about not eating and explain that, while you do try to eat, you never really feel hungry so you dont tend to eat. You could ask them whether there is a way to get yourself to feel more hungry and how to get yourself to want to eat more again. By asking them this you will be showing them that you do want to be helped and that you are willing to let htem  help, just at your own speed rather than the speed they want you to go at.

Not sleeping could also be addressed in a similar way, perhaps you could ask if there is anything you could do to make yourself relax and fall asleep? You could make a sleep diary recording when you go to bed and what dreams you have, then when you wake up. This could be taken to the gp and may help to diagnose you as well.

Perhaps explaining that telling people about your problems makes you feel like you cant be around them and makes you dislike them (as with school) could help as well as it could make them more understanding towards you in your situation.

I hope this helped, if you want any more help or just want to talk about it, email me. You can do so from my profile page on here.