He raped me. I want revenge!

Question

I've been date raped by a man whom I"ve trusted, he's albanian and has a criminal record and i cannot let it go. I've tried to file a police report, but outta fear I"ve droped charges bcuz I know his family would 'avenge' my report. HE is 31, I'm 20 and after it happened I snooped around only to find out a little about him:

He has a gf that he used to beat badly.

HE does COCAINE!

HE disfigured one man's face with glass and spent 9 mo. in jail.

and he raped me.

He's tried to use psychology on me teling me to file a police report against him that he is simply not afraid of going to court. I can't I"m scared of him. I'm scared he will hurt me, or my dad who he doesn't like.

I need to show him i'm not afraid of him. I want revenge of my own. I don't want couseling. I feel he has to pay for what he did to me, my body. I want to slash his tires or sugar his tank. it will give me power and it would surprise him. he thinks im so afraid of him.

Answer 1

You cannot take revenge of your own, that is just a fact of life.  If you did, he is likely to hurt you more...or hurt another girl like you the same way.  Bottom line, you HAVE to contact the police.  Ask to talk to a female officer if you think it would be easier.  By not reporting it to the police, you are allowing his manipulation of your fear to win.  Do not let him win.