About a year ago I started having health issues and was going to the doctor/ER a lot and now I have a massive amount of bills stacked up. I'm 22 and live alone so I was already just barely making it. With all of these new bills coming in I've had to get a second job just to be able to afford everything and even then it's still just barely. I feel like all I do is work and I get nowhere. Even if I needed to get away from everything for a while, I can't. I don't have any friends in my area and the family that is near me are so involved in their own lives that they don't have time spend with me. I just feel like I'm starting to lose my mind doing nothing but wake up at 5:30am to go to my first job and then not get home until 9:30pm from my second one. I'm just worried about my depression because I do have a history and used to be on medication. Last year I became suicidal but thankfully had somebody there to help me through it. I haven't been on any medication since then and thought I had been stabilizing. I just don't really know what I can do for myself right now and I don't want to have to go back on any medication. I feel like every day is a hopeless struggle and it pisses me off even more because I have to do it alone. It would be so much more bearable if I had somebody to listen to me once in a while or somebody who could offer advice and just be there for me. I guess my question is, what can I do to overcome all of this without having to get back on medication? I would welcome ANY advice, whether it be about depression, how to get help with my bills, how to make friends... anything. I just need help.
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