Sad. See, I was in love with this guy. He was amazing. God I can't even put into words how much I cared for him. He would talk me through all of my problems and help me whenever I needed it and then some. He was adorable. And Jewish (might I add I have a strange fetish for Jewish men). We were planning on like getting married! And we were naming our future kids and everything. He was my world for 10 months. Now comes the hard part- I'm 15. He's 24. I told my therapist about him, she told my parents, and they got the FBI involved. I miss him so much and I don't want him to feel betrayed. I want him to know that it's not my fault that they decided to freak out instead of letting me handle it, and I'm afraid he'll hold a grudge against me forever. I loved him so much. Now it's been a few months since that happened, and I've been diagnosed with anxiety and depression. My therapist left me. Now I'm trying to get a psychiatrist and a counselor to be my support group. I've been suicidal. I love him so much and I'm starting to think about him more and more tonight. I'm going to start to cry again, and it'll all go down hill from there. Please help me.
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