Okay I am scheduled for gastric bybass surgery next week, and I have such an apprehension about it. I cannot shake it, and it's getting worse and worse the closer I get. I have also had intuitions before regarding other people and they have been right so it makes me a little bit more nervous. When I first went to the initial seminar, the head nurse said they never had anyone die, knock on wood she said that everytime she says that she's scared she jinxing them. Just the other day I saw someone that was at the seminar and as soon as I saw her I thought oh no one of us is going to die in surgery, and then almost immediately I thought I am the jinx. Then I told myself that as long as all my pre-op labs came back normal than it will be fine, but my platelette levels were a little high, my doc said nothing to worry about, but I thought it might be sign.
I know it sounds a little crazy but I truly have had premonitions that have come true, but I worked so hard for this and I do want it.??
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