Seventeen year old cutter?

Question

I cut, and the only reason i'm saying this is because i know here no one will know who i am...

No one has noticed. Except one of my friends. She used to cut and keeps telling me to stop, that the scars last forever... i know this.

I've though about suicide... last night.

I don't want to be like this... But i have my moms boyfriend screaming at me and my little sister just about everynight, I have to be strong and stand up for me, and her both.

This is my frist year going into public school (i was always homeschooled) But i can't stand being at home. and that starts in six days. And i stilll don't know what i'm doing. I called my dad and asked if me and my little sister could move in with him and he just said 'i don't think so, stay at your moms'

My best friends is haveing boyfriend problems... and she only has me to come to.

And i always hear, "can't you be more like your older sister" everyday.

I feel like i'm never good enough.

What should i do? i can't talk to anyone!

Is there a web site, where i can talk to people with anyone i know figureing it out?

I don't want to cut anymore, but it's the only way to stop thinking about everything thats going on.

even after i lost my razor i used scissors... i feel hopeless... like i have no choice but to always be like this.

PLEASE help me.

Answer 1

Here are a couple of sites to help you talk!

First try crazyboards, they have a live chat as well as a forum to try and talk things out!  There are forums for self injury, and other disorders.

http://www.crazyboards.com

There is also Befrienders, they are there to help and are focused on helping people who are feeling suicide is the answer

http://www.befrienders.org/

Talk to your mom, call your dad again, talk to your older sister, anyone who might be able to help you.  Your parents are supposed to help, if they won't then try some other adult, relative or not, that you feel you can trust.  

Your mother's boyfriend has no right to yell at you or your sister.  Being strong is very hard in the face of abuse, I know, I've been there.  You can beat it, dear one, but it can seem so impossible.  Both of those sites have places to talk about cutting or other self injury, as well as suicide help.  

It doesn't have to always be like this, not by any means.  When you start school you can go to the nurse or some other school official and tell them what is going on.  It doesn't matter that you've been home schooled, you need to talk to someone! Be strong for yourself and your sister, stand up and tell what is happening.

Answer 2

Call the child protection services and they will help you. Explain to them what is going on. There are people who can help you and your little sister. It sounds as if you are under verbal abuse.  If nothing else call the police and ask them to find help for you. Good Luck

Answer 3

recoveryourlife.com

best help EVER.

Answer 4

PLEASE talk to your mom!! She is your mom... This is what moms do we listen. especially something as serious as this, Please pull her aside and explain to her how you`re feeling, if that doesn`t work Speak to your dad again and really tell him what you just opened up to us. Please don`t give up. Keep talking to everyone until you get help, and until you get answers don`t stop talking. Get off the computer and talk to you`re mom right now...  

Answer 5

you could talk to your mom but if you really don't feel comfortable doing that try calling a suicide hot-line(1 800 suicide how original) i found that in the back of a book

its a 1 800 so it wont show up on the phone bill and if you have caller id you can delete that if youre worried about your parents though it still would be good to tell them

im sure even if you dont consider yourself to be suicidal the hot-line wont mind since theyre related issues

Answer 6

If you want a website or a chat to share your feeling with - yahoo has a wonderful group that is associated with a great treatment center called SAFE alternatives. It is "NoFEAR-SAFE_Approved"  they do ask you why you want to join and then they will approve you. It is all people who have gone through the SAFE program (it is the 1st treatment center for cutting). They are all really wonderful people to chat with.

I do have several numbers and other websites that you can use to be able to continue to talk with someone tonight.

TeenHelp.org  - this is a good site that has a chat, a phone number, and info that you can use anytime

http://selfmutilatorsanonymous.org/ - this is a place that has online meeting that are similar to AA but it deals with self harm

www.recoveryourlife.com - there is always someone online that you can chat with here

1-800-DONT CUT (1-800-366-8288) - there is someone there 24/7 to talk to

800-621-4000 - National Adolescent Suicide Hotline

1-800-448-4663 - National Youth Crisis Hotline

1-800-448-3000 - Boys Town National Hotline - this place offers some very good advice

I hope that this gives you some hope. You have many places to turn for help. If you start to think about suicide again, get yourself to the nearest ER. They will be able to get you into a psychiatric ward where you will have a chance to talk to people 24/7 if you want. They will also evaluate you, help you find a therapist, give you some tools to help yourself, and put you on medication if it is needed.

Best Wishes! ! !