Should I kill myself?

Question

21 year old male, should I kill myself? For 3 months I've had unrelenting symptoms that keep cropping up and getting worse. They started after trying gin for the first time and they won't leave.

Everything from a constant cough irritation below the neck to post-nasal drip and extreme fatigue. No doctor can figure it out, not even alternative medicine. I've tried every medical forum in existence.

I've only had one gastroenterologist hint at "acid indigestion" and he gave me every pill in the book for it, to no avail. Besides, my symptoms are too varied for that to even be the whole cause.

I am tired of feeling like this. I don't know if this is temporary or permanent, but I am tired of living with 15-20 unexplainable symptoms that 10 doctors, 10 nurse/health coaches, 5 alternative medicine specialists, and the internet cannot figure out.

This has totally destroyed my lifestyle, sense of well-being, quality of life, and sanity. I feel like an actor playing the role of my former self, and I no longer want to feel this way.

So yes or no?

Answer 1

 Hi Man,

I just wanted to let you (or anybody else out there whose going through something similar) know. I went through something identical to this a couple of years ago - horrific symptoms, tried EVERYTHING, couldn't rest, couldn't feel happy, eventually didn't want to even live any more. In the end it turned out that all the symptoms that were cropping up (real, physical symptoms believe me) were products of a couple of undiagnosed and highly obscure psychiatric conditions. I spent a couple of months in a mental hospital going through counselling whilst being pumped full of all kind of drugs, and now 3 years later I'm fine! The symptoms are GONE, and my life's back to normal.

I'm not saying you're identical to me, but please please seek out some psychiatric help! And not the stuff a GP will tell you - get a session with a real psychiatrist, even if you have to pay for it - it'll be worth it in the end, trust me.

Hope this helps someone out there.

Answer 2

Be considerate of others: Do NOT... I repeat.. DO NOT make a mess. Hang yourself over the swimming pool. Fill the pool with lime, large enough to immerse your body after you fall. The lime will decompose your body until nothing is left. Keep in mind, any dental work like fillings etc. will remain intact. Set a timer on the pool cover to start covering the pool at about the precise time that the rope will break. Make sure the edges are air tight, so the smell of your decaying body will not leak out and arouse the rest of your neighbors.