I have played on my high school lacrosse team for the past three years. The first two years were great! Last year, we got a new coach. She knew everything about the game but NOTHING about coaching. It sucked. She had no communication skills and let the seniors walk all over her. When she assigned positions she put me in as attack even though I played midfield the previous two years. I was chill and said okay. BUT, she never let me play in games. She had like 6 people on attack and like.....7 in midfield!!! How messed up is that? So all the senior on attack played the entire game and I never played. I was better than a bunch of the midfielders but she NEVER gave me a chance to switch back. I emailed her, talked to her about playing time and she gave me some lame excuse. I was like, let me be a part of the team!! GOSH. She did the same thing to another girl. The sad thing is the other girl actually got to play eventually cuz her mom yelled at the coach for an hour on the phone....jeez.....
It never got better and the coach even demoted me at the end of the season asking if I wanted to play JV so I would get "playing time" ugh. It was awful. I had played on JV the previous two years and was much better than the girls on JV. She never gave me a chance to prove myself. In practice, I beat her daughter on some drill once, and she looked angry. When I scored goals and made good plays in practice, she often did not acknowledge it. It was like, she didn't want to give me a chance.That or she was threatened by the fact that I was trying to stand up for myself by emailng/talking to her. ugh!
So, I never bonded with the girls. It is sad because I was friends with all of the girls at the beginning of the season, even her daughter, but at the end of the season, I didn't know them anymore because I was always singled out. I never played with them....I was a benchwarmer......She was such a horrible coach. My superlative was even "most likely to try the hardest" (which the girls gave me) because they saw how hard I tried in practice.......but I was just treated like garbage by the coach.....for no reason at all.
My grades suffered. I could have gotten straight A's this year but instead I got 5 B's and 2 A's. :(. I was pychologically affected. My self-esteem went down. I was angry every day.......I was physically exhausted from the long practices and angry after every game.....
Should I play next year?? I mean.....by the time I apply to college the season will not have started, and if I put down 4 years of lax......they won't know if I change my plans. I could just play club lacrosse in college. I could just workout and run next year instead and enjoy the spring of my senior year with friends. Also I was thinking of doing orchestra pit for the Spring musical instead. It is less stressful and much more FUN!!!! And I would never get treated like garbage. Plus, I have played violin for 10 years, but never done orchestra pit. I feel like it would be a better use of my time.
Should I forget lax next year? It will be the same coach.......same junk......ugh! It is just, I don't want the team to think I betrayed them. At the same time.....I don't feel close to the lax girls anymore. What should I do?
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