WHATS THE NEXT STEP ????

Question

SO ABOUT TWO YEARS AGO..I FOUND OUT MY BOYFRIEND OF 3 YEARS AT THE TIME,CHEATEDD ON ME WITH A SO CALLED FRIEND..SO AS USUAL . I BROKE UP WITH HIM...AS TIME WENT BY I MET THIS REALLY AMAZING GUY.BUT I WAS SCARED CAUSE OF MY PAST EXPERIENCE.AFTER A FEW MONTHS MY EX BOYFRIEND COMES BACK FOR FORGIVENESS AND A CHANGED MAN ...(SO HECLAIMEDD)..SO I WENT BACK TO HIM AND SORT OF PUSHED AWAY THE VERY NICE GUY...YEAH WE STILL DID TALK AND HE WAS THERE FOR ME INEVERY WAYY...THOUGH I STILLCOULD NTT LET GO OF EX BOYFRIEND...AS MORE TIME WENT BY ALL I ASKED HIM WAS FOR TIME FOR MY FEELINGS TO CHANGE TOWARD MY EX..BUT HE BEGAN TO RUSH ME AND WOULD GET MAD WHEN I WOULD SAY I WASNT READY...FINALLY LAST SEPTEMBER I REALIZED WHAT I HAD..I REALIZED I WAS IN LOVE..LIKE HEAD OVER HEELS..SO I WROTE HIM A 7 PAGE LETTER LETTING KNOW HOW MUCH I WANTED TO BE WITH HIM...WE BEGAN TO GET EXTREMELY CLOSE IT WAS ALMOST LIKE A RELATIONSHIP..BUT DEEP DOWN INSIDE I WAS STILL SCARED OF GETTING HURT...SO ONE DAY IT ALL CHANGED..HE DID A 360 ON ME. HE TURNED INTO A COMPLETE JERK(HE SAYS IT BECAUSE THEY MADE FUN OF HIM BEING AFTER ME FOR SO LONG)..HE WOULD ACT DIFFERENT IN FRONT OF HIS BOYS AND COMPLETED ACT DIFFERENT WHEN WE WERE ALONE..I WOULFEBRUARY IT BECAUSE I THOUGHT YOU KNOW I DID MAKE HIM WAIT ALONG TIME..AS TIME WENT BY. I WOULD THINK IT WAS KRAMA...FINALLY IN FEBUARY ONE DAY I CALLED HCOULD NTEBELIEVEE HAD A GIRL PICK UP AND TELL ME HE DIDCOMPLETELYNYTHING WITH ME.WHAT KILLED ME WAS THAT I WOULD ASK HIM ALL THE TIME DO YOU WANT ME TO LEAVE YOU ALONE??I FEEL YOU DIFFERENT....THAT WAS MY BREAKING POINT I CRIED FOR WEEKS...COULDNT BELIVE THAT THE PERSON I CHANGED MY WAYS FOR COMPLETLY DID THIS TO ME..NOW IN JULY HE TRIED TO COME BACK IN MY LIFE AND I SORT OF LET HIM BACK IN.BUT NOT TOTALLY.EVERYDAY I STILL CRY AND FEEL LIKE IT WAS MY FAULT..MY EX BOYFREIND IS STILL HERE FOR ME AND IS STILL A CHANGED MAN...BUT IM IN LOVE WITH THE ONE I THOUGHT WAS MY PRINCE CHARMING..SO YES I LET HIM BACK IN AND DID IT AGAIN DESTROYED MY HEART EVEN MORE THAN THE FIRST TIME...I NOLONGER KNOW WAT TO DO?? HE STILL TRIES ONE DAY OUT OF WEEK AND SAYS HE SORRY BUT NOW I JUST FEEL LIKE IM A GAME TO HIM...A PART OF ME WANTS TO JUST WORK THINGS OUT WITH MY EX BUT IM NOT IN LOVE AND A PART OF ME IS JUST WISHING MY SO CALLED PRINCE ,WILL ONE DAY REALIZE WHAT I CAN BE FOR HIM BEFORE ITS TO LATE....SO WHATS THE NEXT STEP???

Answer 1

love hurt and that's the truth, sometimes when you really love somebody you got to let go because of many reasons, that is why there is a phrase that love needs sacrifice, you have to really think about these 2 guys, which one do you really prefer and the one that makes you happy and laugh is the one for you, just don't get in a relationship that make you sad and cry. OR even better if you just forget these 2 guys and be single again..there would be someone out there for you who is better and who really wants to be with you.