What should I do? s*x addict?

Question

My self-esteem was crushed as a child due to constant bullying. My parents were over bearing. I lost my virginity at age 9 or 10. I remember being young...really young (4 or 5)...finding tapes....my mom saying "he's doing something you can't" I think I might have been exposed to sexually explicit material at a very young age. Now I'm 26. Cheated on my first girlfriend 12 times, second 4, and now, much to my dismay, I'm trying to cheat on my new girlfriend...and I'm getting close.

I find myself trying to have s*x with people I wouldn't normally find "attractive" just for the adrenaline rush. Everyone thinks I'm such a great guy but no one knows what I really am. I'm charming, and a smooth talker, I'm able to make every girl feel like they're the one.

I know this is all to protect my damaged ego, I'm self-aware...but I'm lost. I feel like I won't stop cheating until I loose everything and kill myself....I don't love them, that part of me needs them...needs to feel worthy of something.

Should I just kill myself?

Answer 1

there are treatments for this so go to your Dr and tell him or her the full story and get referred to a therapist

Answer 2

First, no you do not need to kill yourself.  That is just a way out that would not solve anything and leave a wake of destruction in its path.  What you need to do is seek counseling.  There is a good possibility that you were molested young and blocked it out, and this is your subconscious' way of handling that.  You need to feel needed, I get that, but you are putting yourself and others at risk.  You need to find a way to work through some of the emotions that you have buried and find a way to love yourself.  Until you love yourself, you sure as h**l can't ever really love someone else.  There are specialists trained to deal with conditions such as yours.  s*x addiction is a very real disorder, brought on by some form of trauma.  Seek counseling and do your best to try to heal as soon as you can.  good luck.

Answer 3

What? no calm down ok...u do not need to kill your self!!! Find some help, some professional help ok, yeah what u r doing is wrong though, it's very wrong...

Answer 4

Hang on buddy!

Trust me...killing yourself WILL NOT solve anything. Please, we're all begging you to go and see a therapist. Talking helps. As of right now, you've done the right thing by asking for help in your problem. I think that the next thing that you should do is tell your girlfriend what you're doing? Does she know about what happened in your childhood? It could be possible that you were abused. You should tell her that and please Please PLEASE don't hurt yourself.