I find it difficult to express how I am feeling. When i was younger I had a great desire to talk but felt like I couldn't. I felt like a prisoner in my own body. I held back emotions, suppressed them. I am 20 now. I have memory problems, misplace things, I have outburst of anger. Sometimes I laugh out loud because I think of something funny. People don't understand this. Sometimes I don't know what triggers these emotions. I live in my own world. Sometimes I am de-attached from everything-earth. Identity, feeling like I didn't fit in my entire life. Cultural differences. I can not identify with some of these labels that exist in my environment. Lost in translation. Random. Inhibited. Confused.
I want to be able to complete many tasks, take on difficult responsibilities, be of use to myself and others.
No medication, no psychologist, I need an alternative. Feedback?
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