I am a 16 year old indian/hindu boy. Both of my parents have raised me pretty well, i do well in school and strive to do my best. However, i had my first girlfriend this year and she was half black and half white. I didnt orignally tell my mom about this and one night she found out that i was hanging out with her alone. We were just walking around doing nothing, i hadnt even had my first kiss with her. My mother came home and went ballistic on me, telling me that she hates all american girls and everything and i can never see her again and says that she lost trust in me and everything. I break up with her a couple weeks later and everything is over, i havent told my mom because my mom just thinks she was my friend. i havent talked to her for about over a month. Now my mom is always doubting me and thinks i smoke and drink, but i havent even touched a cigarette or beer and i know i wont do it. She is just too overprotective. My big brother is probably the biggest a*****e ever, he records every conversation i have online and tells me im up to no good and puts so much pressure on me, and i usually crack under pressure. I have a feeling that all summer has passed and i have done absolutely nothing. I havent gone on a vacation in 3 years because its hard for my family, but even with that my mom wont let me even hang out with my friends anymore. She always thinks im seeing my ex girlfriend and i havent even seen her over a month, and i always tell my mom that but she doesnt believe me. She checks all my phone calls but i am innocent. I havent done anything wrong. Yesterday i made a mistake while driving and took the wrong exit while my mom was sitting next to me and she went crazy telling me that i have been distracted by something lately, which im really not distracted at all. Actaully, i think i may be going mentally insane, because being locked up in the house all day is just torture. I want to go play soccer with my friends but i cant even do that. I cant even be on the computer when my mom or my brother are home because they always assume that i am talking to people online when im really not. They think im corrupt but i havent done anything yet, i know my brother started drinking and has smoked during high school and i tell my mom that but she tells me that im lying and she completely trusts my brother and doesnt trust me. I just feel like crying all day and my personality has even changed a lot this summer. I feel like such a nerd sitting at home doing nothing all day, not allowed to talk to anyone and hang out with anyone. My mom hates girls and hates it when i talk to them. I dont even talk dirty or anything, just causal conversation. My best friend is a girl and she forbids me to see her, i think my mother is way overprotective about nothing. I am completely innocent and havent done anyhting at all and im being punished. I have even considered committing suicide and even though it sounds crazy, i feel like it would let me be free or just run away from home. My dad's really nice though, hes the nicest guy ever to me. He let's me do anyhting and i know im responsible enough that i wont do anything stupid or wont have s*x. He wants me to be free and not be stressed out and even encourages me to hang out with my friends and all but my mom wont let me...Why is my life like this? Does anyone have any solution, please help me?? I am crying as i write this and its really getting to me, i am going mentally insane....
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