SUICIDAL THOUGHTS because ANXIETY is ruining my life?

Question

I get a panic attack nearly everyday, i get chest pains CONSTANTLY, i always fear that i am going to die when im getting the chest pains aswell, Anxiety is such an awful thing & i dont want to live anymore because someone told me that Anxiety is a life time battle? is that true? once you have Anxiety you will have it for the rest of your life? im only 21 im NEVER happy anymore Anxiety is ruining me MASSIVELY what do i do? I have a 2yr old son, & the only reason why i suffer from Anxiety is cause ive been stressing out ALOT for 4yrs now i just dont know what to do anymore i feel like literally balling my eyes out i didnt even think i would EVER think of suicidal whats wrong with me? i used to be a happy girl right up untill i was 17, is it worth killing myself? i feel like im losing my mind & im asking for help on what should i do?, i could sit here til 5am in the morning telling everyone my problems i feel so down everyone around me just does NOT understand just cause they are happy & they dont know what its like to have Anxiety what am i surrpose to do? i am on Depression tablets but they dont help. Ive only had Anxiety for a few months & its already taking over my life, i cant even drink coffee, tea, soda drinks, or drink alcohol thats how much Anxiety takes over :(

Answer 1

u cld talk to me on IM i dont have anxiety but im a good listener and always on

Answer 2

If you are having suicidal thoughts you need to be seen by a doctor now.  You will be put into the hospital but it will allow the doctors and nurses to see the degree of your anxiety and start you on proper medication.

I used to live in a hospital for the same thing.  Today I have been out of the hospital for 36 months and off all medication for 29 months so it is possible to recover.  Your son will be a great reason to try.

Do not think that by asking for help you are weak because it takes a ton of courage to ask for that kind of help but you can do it.

Answer 3

As a "survivor of the fittest" in the mental turmoil, I'm compelled to get you out of that BIG PIECE of LIE!  

"Anxiety is a life time battle" does Not mean " Anxiety is a life terminal". Like some one who has Irritable browl syndrone, does it mean they are doomed to live with constant diareria for the rest of their lives? Well yes if they don't seek for treatment or find the condition quite enjoyable.

But one thing I must admit is that Mood disorder( Depression, Anxiety etc) is probably an ultimate devastating form of suffering because of the immense feeling of shame demoralisation, hopelessness, helplessness. There was moment that I would rather to trade my life with a terminal cancer patient,  at least they able to feel love and hope and self-esteem.  Did you know why they so brave to fight for a minimal chance of  survival? The reason that they realize there is nothing more treasuable than being  alive healthy, and more importantly, their lives had become lives of those who loves them and need them.

You sound like a happy girl and you need to understand depression is not rarity that affects  

15% of the population in developed countries. Alternatively, you can think of it as a flu that temporary derived your ability to feel happy and adequate like you supposed to.

Perhaps the only difference is you are the one and only one can make yourself happy again? Sounds even more overwhelming? At least it was to me. But the good news is: you have more control over the situation then you gave yourself credit for.

I'll give my best endeavour to help you because I can imagine the hardship for a 21 year old young mother, who faces a dramatic life change and increased demand of  responsibility, self-control and tolerance as consequences. We feel helpless because those closed to us have all of the sudden become so distant-"they are getting fed up with me sooner or later". perhaps we are the one alienate ourselves from the others, but it's only understandable  when our mind is preoccupied with the sense of inadequately,  so intense that outruns the pleasure from our usual hobbies etc. One thing to bare in mind: it's hard to expect those around us to apprehend such distorted sentiment, but doesn't mean they love us any less.

Moreover. It doesn't matter whether others able to work out why we act the way we do, as long as we know " we think the way we feel", thus alter our negative feelings is to do with change our odd thinking pattern.( CBT)

Your condition sounds like post natal depression to me and the developed symptom of anxiety disorder is a complications of inappropriate treatment e.g. a lack of support or inadequate medication if you are on right the dosage over six months. I suggest you to consult with your general practioner for hormone issues etc. In addition, give yourself space from your domestic routine to read some self-help materials for a better understanding to manage your emotions. Trust me, life will set back on track soon and you won’t want to wait to tell us about your joyful motherhood experience.

You are more than welcome to visit my introspection blog http://lesstraveledby.wordpress.com which I seek to keep a track on my thoughts at times of emotional ambush.  I recommend you to do it for yourself too, start to pay to attention the smallest hint of happy moments, believe me or not, sometimes it's not that you can't feel happy, but it's because you simply forgot about the feeling of happiness.

Good luck

Answer 4

DO NOT kill yourself. You should start seeing a therapist if your having anxiety like this. tell your therapist that whatever medication you're on isnt working and he'll probably give you something else to take. I hope you get better soon : )

Answer 5

Please don't think about doing anything irrational... Even if no other reason is good enough, there's always your son.

It's never worth killing yourself. There's no reason in this world that's worth killing yourself over...

I know what it's like not being able to drink coffee, caffeinated sodas, or alcohol... I can't because caffeine causes  manic episodes (since I'm Bipolar) and alcohol can kill me on my medication... Truth be told, though, there are lots of more fun things in the world that don't get you sick like alcohol, and caffeinated stuff isn't the only thing to keep you awake. Try eating apples or peanut butter... That can give you a good boost.

Answer 6

I used to have anxiety, quite badly. My parents were really worried about me so they took me to a gp, who then told me i was suffering from anxiety and recommended a phycatrist. I went twice for a hour each time and i haven't had any problems since I got it about 5 years ago last month and I had it for about 1 and a half a months, I saw the phycatrist and ive not had any problems since. I am now 15(well i turned 15 today)!

Answer 7

Do not kill yourself ! If the pills are not working have your doctor try another. Living with fear is very hard ! But you are stronger than it is . The best advise is give it to GOD. May sound corny but it works. I do know about that. Just don't ever give up.

Answer 8

the same thing happend to me. do see your doctor and see if they put you on anitdeperessions. they did for me and i feel 100 times better than i did with anxiety

Answer 9

If your medication is not helping, then you need to contact your doctor and tell him exactly how you feel. He may change or increase your medication. There are also antianxiety medications that he could give you. Call him today. If you get the answering machine then call the emergency number they give you on the recording. Godbless. Depression is h**l, I've been there. You'll get through it. Take it a day at a time.