Self harm and depression?

Question

in 17 im waiting to see a psychiatrist for depression.. ive seen my gp..

i stoped cutting for about 2 months cause i promised a friend.. but i broke it... my friend understands..but ive been cutting more and more and deeper.. the marks my gp saw were fading ones... but he doesnt know ive done more... or that i think about dying more and more... he knos i think about it cause thats why i was sent.. but he doesnt know that ive tryed before either...or how much i want to try again.. but i promised my friend i will try to wait... she said thats the only promise she wants me to keep...

i dont go out at all..mostly sit in my room... outside everything looks too unreal and theres loads of ppl! if lots of ppl talk and move at the same time i cant stand it!! it scares me!! noone at home knows.. they just get annoyed cause i wont go out! i havent told dr aboout that either...i cant eat i dont eat much if ppl tell me to i eat a bit then thow it away.. i dont feel like eating at all! im loosing weight...

cant sleep much!

the waiting list is 10 weeks for a psychiatist... i dont know what to do till then neither does my friend.. all my other friends have vanished cause i avoided them too much.. i just wanted to be alone... but the only one i have left isnt here.. shes gone back home(halfway across the world) for the holidays.

what can i do?

Answer 1

hey i know what ur goin through i am fighting it myself its hard i understand it as only been 2 days since i have cut i know how the urges feel n i have an eating disorder its not fun i have been suffering cutting for 5 2 6 years n an eating disorder for 1 an half its not easy in this world eithier 4 me i go through soooo much stuff from people cuz they don't like me or they don't accept me 4 what i do 2 myself if u ever want 2 email me it is [e-mail] i will listen 2 what u have 2 say i won't judge u eithier

HOPED I HELPED GOOD LUCK

Answer 2

I was in basicly the same posion 2 years ago i was so low there was no were lower but i met a new friend she chanded my life the first thing she said to me was are you ok. those few words changed my life things completly turned around she saved my life with out even knowing it. i dont no what you can do but i sugest you talk to someone if you like you can email me!! always willing to help i made it though and i no you can to!!!!!!!1

Answer 3

Try talking to your gp again and explaining that the situation has gotten worse. Be honest about the thoughts you've been having, as well as the cutting he doesn't know about. Sometimes, if a situation is more urgent, they may be able to move you up on the waiting list for a psychiatrist. If not, ask them if there's someone else you can talk to or call in the meantime.

If you can, try and talk to someone at home about it. I know it can be difficult bringing an issue like this out into the open, and that you may worry they won't understand, but part of the reason they may be annoyed is because they don't know what's going on with you. I know I felt like I couldn't talk to my family about it at first because they were ragging on me about the changes in my behaviour, but once I explained everything I was going through and feeling and thinking, they were very helpful.

And I know it's tempting to push everyone away, and that being around lots of people can make you anxious, but don't let yourself become a prisoner. Once you allow yourself to be trapped inside your room away from people, it can be incredibly hard to get out again, and everything will seem harder.

I know it sounds trite, but you can beat this. It sounds like you've got a good friend, there. I know she's not with you now, but she'll be back, so just try to remember your promise to her.

Answer 4

First I want to say that if you've taken the time to talk to your dr and write this question than you're showing that you want help and that is an awesome first step. Find some hope in that. I would call your dr and tell them your issues have escalated and you need to see someone NOW. There have to be plenty of other Dr's you can see and to be honest, a clinical therapist (might not be a psychiatrist, but still has their PHD in Psychology and is licensed to treat mental health patients) can assist you either as a replacement for an actual psychiatrist or until one becomes available. There is no reason you should have to wait that long. Seriously, it sounds like this could be urgent and you should call your gp and tell them you need something NOW. If that doesn't work, maybe you should tell your parents and they can talk to your dr. Truthfully... your dr probably isn't seeing the urgency in the situation because he thinks you only "use" to do it but doesn't know how serious it is at this moment. Please call your dr. You can get so much help and feel so much better. I promise.  

Answer 5

Go see a therapist, a psychologist or a social worker. The meds will help but you need to talk to somebody too. You could always go to the hospital and ask to speak to somebody

Answer 6

Maybe you can tell someone about how serious your situation is. I feel so bad for you, I wish I could give you a better answer, if you need someone to talk too, let me know.

my email is: [e-mail]

Answer 7

Well, if you don't like being around lots of people, then look for hobbies that are are quiet & loansome for now, then as the days pass find something u like to do & find one person who likes to do the same. This can be someone on the internet, or real life(although the ladder might be somewhat more effective) Talk to that person & connect with ur likes & dislikes.

Believe me there isn't one person in the world u don't have anything in commin with. Focus on the positive things u can do, not the negative ones. I'm encouraging u to go out & make at least one real friend, start off at the library, its not that quiet, but you'll find it much easier to think in than other places. If one of the reasons u don't go out is because someone told u ur not attractive, then its not true, people says mean things to other ppl because they feel threateed at how attractive that person is, confidence is key.

Yes I don't know u, & I've never seen u, but I assure u that if this dosen't work then nothing will, because it all depends on if u want to get better, no Dr. or any meds will do that, u have to make an effort on ur own part.  And if all iv'e said dosen't work then I promise u can talk to me here everyday, because I don't like to see anyone or anybody in pain emotionally or physically, ur friend pathyorean.