Self harm help please?

Question

I'm not telling anyone and I don't want to talk to anyone. I've been cutting myself for 3 years. Every time I get upset or hurt I cut. I tried really hard to stop cutting. I was able to stop for 2 months. I thought I had beaten self harm and I would be ok. Last night I got really upset and found myself looking for a razor blade. I could not find one and started having a panic attack. I got mad at myself for throwing them all away. I finally found one and by this time I was really upset. I started cutting and cutting. I threw the blade away so I could not do it again. I feel like I want to start cutting again. I think I'm starting to slip back into self harm. I'm 17 what should I do?

Answer 1

When you feel like cutting turn up the radio and scream until you feel better

Answer 2

It's been 3 years, you know by now that you can't stop on your own.  If you really want to stop, you will have to get help.  Drinking coffee isn't going to help on this one, you have a mental illness.  That doesn't mean you're a bad person, it means you're sick.  If you had an appendicitis attack, you would go to the emergency room and let someone help you, right?  This is the same thing.

You say you're not telling anyone and you don't want to talk to anyone?  Why did you ask the question?  We're all anonymous, but we're still people.  You are calling out for help, but a bunch of anonymous people on the internet can't help you.

Answer 3

The best thing do is to tell your parent(s)/carer so if you feel down again they can help. Throw away all the razors you have. The next time you feel bad talk to the person you told, maby do something you really like doing to take your mind of it. If it comes to the point where nothing works and you want to cut yourself, stop and think why you are doing this to feel better. Only you can stop it, but others can help.

Answer 4

Find something else to do. Destroy a phone book. Scream. Turn your music up loud and sing along.

I just keep telling myself  not to because why would I want to open my body up and let infections in... But I still want to sometimes. Just keep the sharps away. But you can't stop yourself if yourself is determined. I'll hit myself if I get into that state.

You just need to work on achieving a happier state of mind, and not let yourself enter that state where you are so angry/sad/hurt that you need to hurt yourself.

Have you tried perking yourself up with coffee?

Answer 5

Do what you did to stop the first time. I know you don't want to tell anyone and I don't blame you because you are really the only one who can help you at this point. However, you should still tell SOMEONE. Maybe not even tell them you do it often, just tell them you have done it before. What is it about cutting yourself that makes you feel better? Maybe you can get that same satisfaction some other way.

Answer 6

self harm is never the answer!!

go to this website.

read the stroy please!

http://www.twloha.com/the_story.php

Answer 7

I understand not wanting to get help, and not wanting to talk about it.  Self injury is a deeply private, personal thing to most of those who engage in it.  That you are talking here is a big step to take, and throwing out the blades is a good start.  Self harm has an awfully strong lure, and is really hard to break.  Some of it seems to stem from depression and anxiety related disorders, but there are other reasons.

Here are a few sites you might want to check out.  Crazyboards has a forum on self injury, as well as other disorders and has a live chat.  Self Mutilators has live chat (I prefer crazyboards, personally), and the other sites are good too.

Answer 8

This one is very hard to answer.  Especially since you do not want to talk to anyone.  I know your not going to like it, but you really need to talk to someone who truly understands.  Not just a friend who has never experienced your pain.  Someone who can help you.  Trust me you are not alone, we have all soothed ourselves one negative  way or another.  This is a battle I'm not sure most have the strength to win alone.  Are you sure you will not reconsider talking to someone?  There are temporary fixes, but you need something long term!  

Answer 9

Buy or rent a book from your library on meditation and relaxation techniques.  That way u and only u will be incontroll.  

Answer 10

Remember that when you cut yourself your damaging your only body and your only chance at life.

Personally when I'm upset I'd rather beat someone else up over myself, try screaming into a pillow and beating the c**p out of it until you've tired yourself out. Exercising is a great way to release stress, and it creates the same enzymes you get when you cut yourself. That's why cutting gets so addictive to some people, it releases "happy gases" so to speak. Once you're done releasing your anger/pain go do something you find relaxing. Take a long, hot bath. Eat chocolate. Watch a movie. Play a game, hang with your loved ones, be alone. Whatever makes you most happy. :)

I'm sure you're a beautiful and wonderful person and even though we haven't met I want you to stop. :) Don't put the blame of others on you, because whatever makes you cut; it probably isn't your fault. Why punish the excused?