Self-harmed and now he is being wired with me?

Question

a few months ago, i self harmed quite a lot and i also put my ex's name into my wrist when he left me for someone else - he was the only person i really cared about and i didn't do it for attention, i done it cos it made it feel like he was still there with me - me and him were friends at the time and deep down, i was happy for him and the girl he was with (even tho he cheated on me with her before getting with her) as she is a really nice girl and i know some of her friends; anyways, they split up and he said it was cos he always had to stop himself from saying my name to her, he sent her a text that was meant to go to me and it was telling me that he still loved me - me and him then got back together.

we split on 15.07.08 and have been friends since - last night, for some reason, i cut his name back into my wrist where it had scarred and he doesn't know but he hasn't really spoke much to me today?

i feel so stupid - so stupid that i feel like dying! i just don't feel like i want to be here anymore. my best friend died on monday night and i feel like i'm all alone.

Answer 1

Please try and talk with someone.  Talk to a counsler, a doctor or nurse, pastor of a church, police or firefighter.  This is really sad and you can do a lot of damage to yourself.  

I understand why your hurting yourself.  But in the long run, it's not worth it.

Answer 2

I'm so sorry about your best friend. Take heart though, I'm sure they wouldnt want you to feel so alone.

Its time you moved on since your ex doesnt sound like he knows what he wants. Try not to be stuck in the house. Go out for a walk, talk with somebody, hang out with family. This too shall pass.

Answer 3

i harm myself a lot, almst every day. I could tell you not to do it but I know you won´t listen to me because at least I don´t hear others.

I know that when you self-harm you don´t even think about it and just do it as a reaction when u feel empty inside.

I can only tell you that if you self-harm do it because of yourself, because you have problems with yurself. Don´t do it because of other person. Specialy not for a guy that bviously doesn´t care about yu the way you do. Love comes and goes, you just have to wait till yu find the right one.