Self-recovering from bulimia.. .?

Question

So far, I've been self re-covering from bulimia. I haven't told anyone because I'm ashamed, really ashamed of my behavior actually. My parents and friends think I'm the perfect child, but obviously I'm not. I've been going for .. 11 days without b-n-ping and I'm proud of myself. I've lost 4 pounds since then. But I realized that I'm just eating less and less and less and exercising more and more and more.

Here's my shape of the day:

Wake up - eat 1 egg & 1 cup of broccoli, 1 cup vanilla organic soy milk

Snack: broccoli & carrots

Lunch: a protein bar + a fruit

EXERCISE FOR 1 HOUR, RUNNING USUALLY.

Dinner: energy drink, activia yogurt and a vegetable.

Usually my calorie count would be around 700.. . And I'd exercise about 1,000 Calories off. I know i should be eating more but every time I think about eating more I'd resort to bulimia. I want to know how much I should be eating, calorie wise. I'm 125 pounds and 5"1. I've tried everything to get my metabolism back to speed. I would eat breakfast, drink coffee and green tea, eat frequently (but usually not enough), drink lots of water. I don't even think it's even sped up at all.

I want to be able to eat like a normal person before my birthday (january 9th). Does anyone think I'm ever going to be able to eat like a normal person again? I feel bloated and disgusting and sluggish every time i eat just the slightest meal/snack so I end up not eating and exercising until my stomach is firm and not so bloated. What should be my first steps? I'm not the right road, I just need to know how to completely recover MYSELF. I don't want a doctor or counselling because I know i can do it. I just want to know the steps first.

How do you know if your metabolism has sped up and is up to date? Is it by the amount of times you p**p per day?

Answer 1

Congrats on 11 days without b/ping! I'm bulimic too, and 11 days is such a great accomplishment. Although you're doing well in that part, overexercising is also part of bulimia. You're basically compensating for not throwing up. My advice would be portioning out your food so that you can have 1,200 calories throughout the day in small portions, so you don't feel like you're pigging out. I know that if I eat too much at one time, I'll end up binging and purging. That should be your first step, then if you can, try to exercise less. Don't run, jog, and only do 30 minutes. That way, you can still exercise, not gain weight, but still be able to eat normally.

And right now your metabolism is probably in the dumps. If you steadily increase your calorie intake, let's say by 200 calories every week, you'll increase your metabolism without gaining weight.  You'll know its sped up when you can eat 1,200 to 1,500 calories a day without gaining weight. I know that seems like a LOT of calories, but it's what you should aim for if you want to speed up your metabolism to the point that you dont have to constantly think about what you're eating.

Answer 2

Congratulations.. you're doing a really great job (:

Sorry this isn't really much of an answer coz I don't really know the answers to your questions :P

I self stopped also... but that was out of fear because my mum sort of figured it out. That night I had a big dinner of 4 pancakes and I was so desperate to escape and go and... yeah. But I didn't.

I think that you should slowly increase how much you eat. I was eventually able to eat like a normal person again so I'm pretty sure you will too. My metabolism picked right back up after about 2 months or maybe less.

Good luck <3