Seniors .am i wasting what is left of my youth?

Question

my bf who is 12 yr younger than i am and has to get high and drunk everyday.. and never wants to marry.i twice divorce the last marriage lasted 19yrs to a control freak,.and i who drink twice a week.. with only a ged education..who sometimes think about going back to school with no focus on what i would like to be.. my memory is so sluggest i can read the same book over and over again and not get bored..i may be adhd..my child is that so i could be as well ..i do not know.. but do you think i am wasting what little life i could have left..i am almost 45..not that i think i am going to die soon..but retirement is when i am in my late 60s.. so it is not that far off

Answer 1

if you have to ask, it is not right for you.  get rid of the bf and grab a new chunk of life, something entirely different and go for it