Serious apprehension and depression : I just can't stop crying....help! ?

Question

Okay, so I leave for college tomorrow, and I today I just felt like I'd like I'd NEVER BE HAPPY....AGAIN!

I cried all day....and a lot of factors weighing on me : 1-My math class is online, and I really struggled with an online math class in high school. I think I have a phobia of online math and I'm frightened of it, 2-I don't know what to expect, and I'm afraid that I'm inadequate, along with my studying habits, 3-I'm worried about my mom and dad because they take a lot of medicine, and I'm concerned for their health and well-being, 4-I have an uncle who was in a devastating car accident with an 18 wheeler tractor trailer long distance truck that resulted in a serious brain injury.

The college that I'm going to is like two hours from home, and people keep telling me that college will be the best four years of my life.

But how can it be the best four years of my life when I have all of this stress weighing on my shoulders?

Because of everything that's going on, I don't feel that I'll be able to perform well academically. I'm scared out of my mind with nervousness and anxiety, but I don't want to react in a way that could seriously damage me and my future. I don't want to have a nervous breakdown with all of this crying, but I feel that I need to get it out now before classes start.

Can anyone help me in this time of crisis?

Answer 1

I am totally there with you. When I was a freshman going to college for the first time, I worried and cried a lot especially the 2 weeks b4 it was time to leave. My school was also about 1hr and 45 mins away. Newho, my mother was unemployed and struggling to pay the bills with 3 children. My aunt was diagnosed with breast cancer and wasn't going to live but for 3 more months. My uncle was also in a motorcycle accident which smashed his collar bone and fractured his scull, and finally my grandmothers thyroid and diabetes caused her lots of problems.As far as classes were concerned I had to be in Developmental math ( not good at math at all). Neway, when i first got to school I talked to my advisor who informed me that you can call home everyday, visit on weekends, write and if you get a job you an always help your family out. But  on your campus they should have a library where they can have a tutoring session for various classes.  

Answer 2

As it sounds like you DO have a lot of problems (especially the situation with your family members), it sounds a little like GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder). Do you continuously worry about things? Or is this just a point in your life where you feel the pressure to do the best at all things in life? If you do worry continuously, I would suggest writing down everything that poses a threat to your life, and, in your opinion, what you could do about these threats i.e. doing bad in college, helping your parents. You owe it to yourself that you cannot be perfect and/or prevent anything from happening to your parents and uncle while you are away.

I'm not going to suggest counseling or medication because it's not always for everyone, nor will it be a quick fix as it takes awhile to see changes. What might help is talking to someone that listens.

I've always found writing in a journal relieves stress because all my fears, angst, and depression eventually stays there and it's not with me throughout the day when I'm trying to concentrate on other things.

Another thing you owe to yourself is to get the help you need whether that is for your math class, someone to talk to (a friend or counselor), etc. A thing that might relieve you about your parents is to make it a point to call them daily.

You have to ask yourself in any situation: what's the worst that could happen? Prepare for the worst to happen, BUT until or if that happens, try to keep it in the back of your mind. Focus on school, meet new friends, distract yourself.

College will be the best four years of your life, or even one year of college at that. It's definitely an eye-opening experience. People that I've known in high school that went off to college and then came back, came back completely different. All of your good qualities shapen in college and pushes you to make the best of yourself.  

Answer 3

yep!  Go to the liquor store and buy you some Jack Daniels and a 2 liter coke.  Go home and mix it up and drink away.  That's what i'm doing this very moment.  Or you could go to the doc and get on some prozac or zoloft to help with your depression.

Answer 4

It will be alright, just take one step at a time!

Go to the health food store and buy 2 things:

1. St.John's Wort extract

2. Passion Flower extract

Take them as directed on the bottle. They work really  well, and without any adverse effects. You'll see, within a couple of weeks things will look much better.

Best of luck!