Serious suicide help needed here?

Question

Ok,

I have been suicidal in the past and have told myself that i wouldn't let it happen again, but i'm just not strong enough.

I'm not upset, I just don't want to do it any more. fed up breathing, waking up, getting into bed, getting out of bed. everything.

I currently live on my own, and I have asked my parents for help with this, but they wont help.

For instance I would like to move home to gt my head together, and my parents both refuse, I am 20 just so you know, and my siblings still live at home.

I have had professional help on this before, but it only works if i constantly have help, and I mean 3-5 days a week help.

So i just want to escape, and not think any more. has anyone been though this and got through it? how did you get through? how can i get back home to try straighten out my head?

thanks

Answer 1

I get drunk now and then .it is an escape..the world is still here when i get sober...I escaped for a while.

If you want to get better..try religion..you don't believe,,...go to a church..make it work..faith is hope....

Life usually gets better as you get older(until you get real old)...

If you want to go home, get better..it is not catch 22...You said there ar other kids there...get better for them...

how about meds? some work great for a while...

good luck

Answer 2

I want to let you know that it was very brave of you to put this question out there and that you knowing that you need help is a big part of the recovery. If you family is not letting you live with them for whatever the reason is then you should get a pet like a dog or cat or even a pet rat. I have three dogs and two pet rats and let me tell you rats are so sweet and they do not bite at all. And dogs are great too. If you are allergic to dogs get a Shih-Tzu because they have human like hair, the do not shed, and they are meant for people with allergies. Because once you have a compainion that depends on you to live then you will have something to live for. And dogs bring you so much joy. Maybe you should go she a professional again but if money is an issue then you should call a suicide hotline and talk to them because they are very helpful. You are 20 years old you have your whole life ahead of you things can change and get so much better in the future I can guarantee you that your whole life will not be like this. Please do not kill yourself though because I have had a person in my family committ suicide and trust me you would not believe the pain that it left, all the unanswered questions, the sadness and depression. And right now I have another person in my family who is dealing with depression but please, please do not kill yourself. Please I am begging of you. If you ever need someone to talk to you can email me I promise you that I would never tell anyone what you say and I will truely try to help you. My email is:

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I check it about everyday. And other people who are reading this do not email me. Good luck with your recovery!  

Answer 3

I know how you feel sweetheart. I am 22 years old and I am dealing with the same thoughts as you. For years my parents just put it off as teenage angst. I recently went out got a little too drunk and cut my wrist. I was crying and screaming for help so badly that my neighbors thought my fiance was beating me. They called the police and I was taken to the ER. This forced not only myself but the rest of my family to step back and see that there is something terribly wrong. I have found a counselor and am about to meet with doctors to figure out if I need to go on medication. There are numerous support groups for you to talk to. People care about you. I have always tried to argue that it is not a selfish thing to kill yourself, but think  about who you will be leaving behind. Sweetheart, you will be okay. I promise. Take it from someone who has dealt with things like this before. My cousin is bi-polar and is in a coma because he took all his medication. My best friend committed suicide. My dad is on anti-depressants. I understand what you are going through but you can get over it. You have to want to beat it. You have to want to get through it. I know it's hard waking up, hard thinking you are worth something. I understand. But you are worth something. You are a good person. You can be okay, i promise. Please add me as friend. Email me. I want to help you

Answer 4

Call your local crisis line for some advice on where to go.  If you go to an emergency room and tell them you are close to committing suicide, you will be admitted and watched.  

Are you being treated for clinical depression?  Being fed up etc sounds like depression and medication should help with that.  

Answer 5

Personally, I don't believe home is your answer!

Have you and your doctor considered a treatment center??? or inpatient center of some sort for you....You mention this is the second time, have you been on anti-depressants during this time, you should be, and check in with a therapist regularly with the medical situation and your feelings, not waiting until you get into this shape.

You need regular treatment.  But as a start, I believe in patient or treatment center, would be your answer.  Not home.

Answer 6

I have been through it—even afraid of being left alone.  See a psychologist as soon as possible.  If you don’t have the money to pay, go to a state facility in your city or town.  The doctor will give you anti depressant medication.  Some medical doctors can treat you too.  Until you get there, pray.  I will pray for you.

Answer 7

Find something to Live for. WHo cares if it's gonna cost you lots of time or money. Just find something and it will make you happy.

Answer 8

Sorry you are having a rough time. Yes I have been there. The fact you are posting this questions shows you want help and are not in as bad shape as you feel.

Don't dwell on going home. That may be an avenue of escape you don't really need.

Look in the phone book for the local mental health help line. There is one in every city. They don't care who you are or what the problem is they are there to help. If you don't have a phone book, do an on line search for a phone number.  If you can post here you can do that search. If all else fails call 911 and tell them you need help. They should be able to refer you.

You are stronger than you want to believe.

You are stronger than you want to believe.

Answer 9

you need to see someone who can help you with this like a therapist

Answer 10

I got counseling. I was in the 5th grade! 5th grade, and I almost threw myself off a balcony. You know why I didn't? Because I thought I might not die, or, I didn't want to give up whatever else was out there.

Get counseling. It sounds REALLY dumb. I know, spilling you thoughts out to someone you don't even know. Find a counselor. AND a psychiatrist. I see my psychologist once a week. and my psychiatritst once a month. You say you aren't upset, but if you are bored of life and want to kill yourself, you are just in denial. Depression hurts. Think of anything positive. LIke in Harry Potter, happy memories. Avoid staying at home, skipping work or school and don't sleep too much. Go out, meet people, make friends. If you have money take a trip. (After you've been counseled a little bit.) But plan one now. I LOVE planning trips. Just DO SOMETHING :]

I respect you. Killing yourself is not the answer though. Who knows what's next after death? No one really actually knows unless they are dead. But the next life might suck even more....

Answer 11

it could be that your parents, having faced this before, know what to expect and feel inadequate to the emotional or financial demands your state of mind will bring into the family.  it's also possible that they see you as an adult and are trying to push you out of the nest~ you'll never learn to stand on your own if you always turn to them at the first sign of difficulty.  

it does sound like you're a little depressed, which is understandable with the way the world is.  to take your mind off your own misery it wouldn't hurt to spend some time taking care of someone else.  volunteer at a hospital or nursing home for example.  it is very difficult to go into these places and see how bad off some other people are and still feel sorry for yourself.  

so you're saying to yourself, what's the point of it all, why bother?

i said that once, and somebody died.  that's the point.  we don't have forever to tell people and show people how important they are to us, because there's no guarantee that any of us will see tomorrow.  

hey, don't be as dense as me.  

don't wait to lose somebody to learn this.

Answer 12

i would just pray about it bc god has a purpose for your life god is one of those people that is always there with you and just always remember that jesus died on the cross for you and i would just go to church bc god will take care of u if u have anyother ?s my msn is [e-mail]

Answer 13

You need some close friends that will hang out with you and ones that u can have real converstations with. Life is about overcoming obstacles and getting back on your feet when your down. Iv'e felt like you but only for like a day, it could be a chemical misbalance and also dpeends on what food you are eating as the chemicals in foods does have a negative impact on our brains.  

Answer 14

You don't have to be religious to Believe in a Higher Power, But try  telling your parents you're Serious..

Answer 15

Yeah, I've been through it and lived.  First thing, I came to know Christ as Lord and Savior and He helped me through it.  He is the only way I make it through this world.  Second, you need to consider getting put on an antidepressant in the meantime.  If you think you are going to kill yourself right now you need to go to the ER as soon as possible so they can help you medically.  You may have some kind of imbalance or something.

Answer 16

your parents are trying to make you live on your own, you should take a vacation like a cruise. try get yourself a girlfriend or hang out with your friends more often

Answer 17

I'm assuming you're dealing with severe depression, and many people have been through this and are going through it right now.

I don't have any advice on how to convince your parents to let you back home.  However, I do know that for many of us Death can become a Temptress that promises to end the pain and solve all our problems.  This may be true, but it's also possible that you'll end up finding out that whatever exists after death may be worse than this and you won't be able to come back.

There are over the counter medications, such as St. John's Wort, that can help, but based upon experience medications rarely help completely.

The worst thing you can do is turn to alcohol or drugs.  You'll probably feel good for a few minutes, but then you'll have to deal with addiction on top of the depression.

One option is to explore the darkness you are in through art.  You don't have to be a degreeded artist to write, paint, scupture, etc., and the insights you gain could be quite valuable.

If you live in the U.S., I recommend checking out the National Allicance for the Mentally Ill, (NAMI) website. at www.nami.org.

NAMI consists of people who are dealing with mental illness themselves or with people close to them, and they have local chapters all over the U.S. The chapters meet on a regular basis, and they can link you with people who are going through the same issues.  If you live outside the U.S. they can probably link you with other organizations like them where you live.

Answer 18

Well, there must be a reason why u r like that. Think hard on it. Is it a good reason for you to think about? Is it so imp. that u must spend so much time on it? No reason is good enough to die for...but every reason is good to live for... It must be hard that your parents r paying no mind to your feelings but soon enough you will be an adult and you will be giving the example of how to be a great sibling/parent to your younger siblings, no matter how your relationship is with them or how unfair it is u have to set up an example so u can live with yourself. Being good and having feelings it's what makes us capable of being humans. I recommend looking, again, for help maybe a different doctor *recommended*  and pay a visit to your parents to talk about it. Teach everybody that u r worth it...maybe u can write your feelings and share them as ideas... I have a friend who went through this and he's all better now he just had to wait for some time for it to pass and believe in his worth. Believe me, don't think in what others think of u because many people don't appreciate others. Live your life being an example for others, NOT A RELIGIOUS EXAMPLE, but on how being a great person. We, for sure, have only one life and we must live it at the fullest even if we suffer, we need to teach others how grateful we are for it even if they never learn..

Answer 19

ok if your parents wont help go to your friends and your other family like aunts uncles ppl like that but whatever you do think about how good you have it compared to other ppl and if other ppl don't kill themselves then neither should you u really need to find someone to help you try a friends it really works also you don't always have to be with them talk on the phone video chat as long as you can get in touch with some 1 whenever you want u should be ok

hope you get better

Answer 20

well i think thats pretty shady of you r parents for not helping you, do they know that you are having suicidal thoughts? if they do thats just sorry....whats there phone number? if they doont know you need to tell them. at the last resort you can go to the hospital and they will make sure that you get what you need. they might put you in an instatuition but it would keep you from harming yourself. do you have a close frind that you can talk with or will they let you stay with them? good luck and hope you get the help you need

Answer 21

get a room mate, a 20 year old shouldn't have to live alone. you're still a child basically.

if you really need to desperately go back home then tell your parents the truth about why, hopefully they'll understand.

your case sounds more like a medical problem anyway. it's very common for people to have chemical imbalances. you could choose to seek medical advise if it gets too serious.

the sooner you get over this the faster you can get your life on track. and don't worry you have plenty of time, you're so young.

Answer 22

I was in the EXACT same place as you were once. After I got a second chance I realized there is something here that is worth living for. I can't be selfish, the pain will stop for me but it would begin for others. Think about it, just for a couple of minutes. This is a temporary situation, but your thinking of a permanent solution. I never thought I would be in the place I am now. I forgave, I'm happy, I'm so strong. It takes time and patience, but you should NEVER give up. Think about the future, and what lies ahead. Theres always something special waiting for you. I didn't give up, and so many good things have happened to me. Maybe you shouldn't move home. Maybe you should move out, and get away. Take some adventure and explore.

I'm only 3 years younger then you. Can you please email me? I would love to talk to you to help you =]