Hi. I am thinking of suicide right now. I am a 20 year old woman that got herpes as a result of a rape. I am so severely depressed. I had a sore about 3 weeks after the rape. I went to the doctor and she said it was a yeast infection. However, two day sago (10 months after the rape) I got another sore. It healed in two days.
I just want to die. I just went to this website for herpes support and it says "Face it, you WILL be rejected"
I can't take it anymore. I just want to die. I was hoping to wait to have s*x until marriage. However, I don't know if any men these days would be willing to wait.
I just want to die. I am supposed to start college tomorrow (I dropped out bc of the rape but they are letting me come back) but I am so depressed. I was planning on telling my future fiance after we are engaged. If I tell every guy I am casually dating, they will blab to my whole social circle. Then everyone I know will know. Why do people say that would be dishonest if I wait to tell my fiance after we are engaged? Should I just put on my Facebook and MySpace that I have herpes, just be honest? What ever happend to privacy? How is it any guys business unless we are planning on getting married.
Please help me. I am seriously considering suicide. My whole life is shattered. I went shopping today at the mall but I was so deeply drepssed. I have a fresh start at school tomorrow (the rape ruined my schooling but the dean is letting me come back) but all I think about is herpes.
Should I kill myself and end it all? Will every guy think I am disgusting? SHOULD i GO TO CHURCH AND MEET A GUY? Would a nice Christian guy understand?????? How come every guy I meet as soon as we start going on days he asks how I like s*x..........If guys these days are so casual about s*x, then why are they so grossed out be herpes??? People are bound to get herpes eventually.
Should I kill myself? I have no hope.
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