Okay, the dilemma is between me (bride) and my cousin. We went to high school together and were the best of friends. LITERALLY! We were inseparable. We also lived together. In the many years that we've known each other, we only had a disagreement or argument once. Other than that, other issues that came up were easily settled - no arguments, no raised voices. Just a mutual understanding of each other. She is by far more trustworthy than any other human being I have encountered and she's proved it too.
The problem? We're not talking anymore. After high school, she moved out and went back to her family (mom and dad). I moved too and stayed with her for a little bit and worked with her. A month later, I had to move because I wanted to get back into school. Of all people, I thought she would be the most happy for me. She knew that my plans were to always go to college and get a degree. Before I moved to stay with her, I warned her that it would only be temporary until I get a place by where I went to school. Well, when it came to the day I left she wouldn't talk to me! I went to her work and she wouldn't even look at me! She was mad at me! For moving? I don't understand. Anyhow, its been nearly two years now since we've spoken. Everytime I call her she doesn't pick up and now I've lost track of her number.
I'm getting married in less than two years and the thought of my dear bestest and closest friend still hasn't left my mind. When I got engaged I wanted to call her and tell her but I didn't want to get disappointed and hurt if she didn't return the feeling. Now that I'm planning details I really want her to be part of this because we've always talked about it when we were younger. We always joked that between me and her I'd be the first to get married and that she'll pick out my wedding dress.. etc. My fiance and mom tells me to move on.
But they don't understand. Her friendship/companionship was the only worthy one out of all my acquaintances. Friends enter my mind and leave, but even though we haven't spoken in two years. I still think about her. Wondering if she's happy, what she's doing, if she needs help.
Just hurt and confused. Was my moving deserving of the treatment i'm getting?
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