I'm going into high school this year and I've played the cello for four years. It hasn't really been doing it for me. Honestly, I expected to fall in love with playing an instrument like this, but I feel like it's more of a chore than it should be. It's not "Cool, I get to play my cello this afternoon!", it's "Ugh... I can't believe I have to play my cello again...". When I first started out it wasn't like this, but it's gotten really bad the past year. I was talking with my mother about this, but then I heard her talking to my dad and saying "I really wish she would just choose if she wants to do it or not! It's like she wants me to perform some magic! It's really getting on my nerves", a few minutes ago. If I quit things, though, I really feel like I'm letting people down. I can't stop myself from thinking about how my cello teacher might say ,"Man, I can't believe she quit. What a shame..." or "Well, she wasn't trying anyway, so she's just another quitter!"
Could you please give me some advice or tell me why I'm feeling this way? Thank you if you read the whole question, I know it was long.
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