I'm a teenage mom of a 9 month told baby girl. Who I love dearly. But here lately I have been over stressed with her, it's like I can't stand to be around her right now, just because shes so everywhere(I know its bad to say) I'm just so stressed, going to school, and about to get a job, I feel like I will never see her. She stays with her grandma(my Mother In Law), when I have school, and me and her dad are still together. But he works all day and when he gets home is tired. I know I have been "depressed" for a long time. I was depressed before me and my fiance got together, before we had the baby, which was 2 years ago. My ex treated me badly. And then when I was pregnant I gained over 70 lbs. That didn't help at ALL! I got stretch marks every where, and totally transformed. I don't hate my daughter for that at all, I love her. But it's depressing to see all these girls my age still look so good. I pretty much lost all of my friends, like literally. I'm just so tired, overwhelmed, stressed out, and can't take it.
I hate that I feel as though I'm putting my child through this with me, and that her grandmother has to keep her throughout the week(she lives with me though).
I think I need help. I need someone to talk too, besides my fiance. But not a councilor. My mom is on depression medicine, and I don't want her knowing, because I can't stand for her or anyone to think somethings wrong with me. But it's causing me not to be able to sleep, think or function right.
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