Should I keep looking up to him?

Question

There's this guy at work (my supervisor) whom I adore so much. I always do whatever I can for him and he knows how much I care about him. He's like a brother I never had. But just today, something struck me. I was in my Biology class watching a video about how fossils were discovered, etc. and I thought it was really lame and I was not interested at all. I think I've started to become like him, he's one of those cool guys (at least I think) who has no interest in school, and stuff, he doesn't have his degree but he has a good job.

Anyways, besides that, I dont work for him anymore..the thought could just be me wanting to forget about him. But the thought of not liking him anymore suddenly made me feel lonely, he's the one person whom I've really connected with. I have an abusive family, and for that reason I don't talk to them anymore, that's why I liked and appreciated him even more. But I think there is some truth to that extent, that maybe he is not exactly the person I should look up to, I get good grades and suddenly I'm like this..Im seriously losing interest in my college work when all I wanted was to be like him :(

Answer 1

Sounds to me like you've become infatuated with a role model who emulates the kind of person you want to be.  I would probably take a step back and determine his qualities that you admire and then try to develop those qualities in your own personality.  You'll never be just like him because you're not him!  He might be totally different when he's at home.  It's always good to have a role model and if you're learning and developing good things from him, that's a good thing!

It does sound like you might have a bit more interest in him than just someone to look up to.....and if that's the case, I would think twice before crossing the boundaries already in place.