Hi!! I'm actually at a point where I can choose who to live with. Both of them have good things and bad things. I love them both.
My mom: She can't control herself; she yells all the time, etc; she's always in a bad mood. It used to affect me a lot, but now I just ignore it and although I sometimes lose patience, for the most time now I'm OK with not letting it get to me. Usually she then calms down. With her, I'm kind of free to do whatever I want. I can listen to whatever music I want too. I can dress however I want to. I can have whatever hairstyle I want to.
Now, with my brother and his wife: they are very calm, very religious, peaceful... but, since they are very religious... they would probably not let me or criticize my music, my clothing, my spiked hair and so on. Maybe they wouldn't prohibit it from me, but I would always feel judged. And I'm not rebellious or anything. The kind of music I like is clean but fun, clothing is stylish, and hair spiked. I don't think there is nothing wrong with being like that and Christian. Yet, they seem to want me having this dull personality.
So, I'm not sure: My mom's chaos with freedom or my brother's peace without so much freedom?
what do I choose? what seems best? Like I said, I love them both and they have given that option, none would get hurt or anything.
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