Today was my first XC practice. I suck. I ran all summer, and I still suck. All it has been doing is stressing me out. It's all I've been thinking about this summer, and I didn't sleep last night because I was so scared. Today we went out for 30 minutes. In my head I was like, okay I've done 60 plenty of times, half of that should be easy. I was wrong. There were 5 girls. I was the 2nd slowest. The slowest girl had to go back because she couldn't go on, and the 2 fastest were like 100m ahead of me. Even a freshmen was in front of me. The pace wasn't too fast, but it wasn't my easy pace at all. We even stopped for a few minutes, but I was always in last. It seems like even when I try, I suck. So far, I hate it.
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