Should I try and fall in love again? or leave him?

Question

Ok, I have been with my bf on and off for 2 years. I have always loved him and we have had a great relationship and he has been my rock. However, I suffer from OCD and because of this depression. So we have broken up and gotten back together several times, always me ending it. Cos of my OCD I've had alot of paranoid thoughts about him -eg, he's from satan, he is satan were 2 of them. They got better and we worked things out. But this time it's like all of my feelings for him have been blocked out. I miss him when he is gone, but when he is here I don't want to be around him and I end up been mean to him which he doesn't deserve. What can I do? I don't want to lose him because deep down I know I still love him but it's like I don't feel anything anymore when he is here. This is making me miserable, and for the first few days it was making me ill. What should I do? Were on a break at the minute.

Answer 1

Prayer is the key to everything. I will tell you I have thoughts that scare me and drive me insane, because I have a rare blood disease, it affects a lot of different things in my body, it causes me to have hallucinations and it cause a lot of really bad stomach pain, etc. Actually what I have they said drove some of the Kings mad in England. It plays a lot of tricks on the mind. And I can honestly say that if I did not pray about my problems and turn it all over to God I would be a basket case by now. So just try to pray and ask God to help, he's help my mind, he can help yours. I also take medicine and have been to counseling. I have panic attacks too, and I have medicine to take for that as well. Good Luck!!!

Answer 2

Tell your doctor or a psychiatrist so they can prescribe you something.