I know It's a lot to read but I really need help.
I'm 18 years old, my ex is 19. I first started my relationship with him about a half a year ago. Everything went perfect and it seemed we were perfect for each other. We were absolutely the same in every way, from the way we think, things we do, and even how our families are.
We only had about 3 major fights about a trip we were going to have in july. We made it on that trip and on the 1st of July, the first day of the trip, we had the last major fight. (note that we don't usually argue) I usually go ballistic from little stuff from time to time, I can't actually help it but I managed to control myself ever since that incident.
Then he wanted to break up with me because he could not stand those kind of arguments any more and I promised him I will never do it again. We got back together later that night and all was good from what I saw. We were together until the 7th of July when I had to go visit family. That was the last time I saw him. When I left we both cried because I was about to move to another city and not be able to see each other as easily. We still called each other and said that we love each other and bla bla stuff like that and that he misses me, and I missed him, and we were making plans for me to come to his birthday (30 july).
On 24 july, he told me he wants me to leave him alone because he wants to be alone and that he tried to be with me but he can't do it anymore... he told me he still loves me more than ever but he just can't go on. Before that day he called me and we discussed normally and we didn't have any fight at all. A week after that I was devastated but managed to get back on my feet.
I still love him besides of what he did -- which can be described as the only thing he has ever done wrong with me in 7 months.
A few days ago he told me he's sorry because I think different of him, and that he lost me. He said he still loves me and he hopes to recover from his little "mental fiasco".
Tomorrow, 6 august, I'm going to visit him and some friends. I don't believe I'll get him back, but I believe I won't.
Should I wait for his episodes to be over, or should I move on with my life?
Note that this is not my first long term relationship. The prior relationship lasted two years and a half, and I decided to end it because I couldn't be myself with him.
But this guy is different, and I can't think straight about what to do, because feelings get in the way of rational thinking.
Thank you so much.
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