long story short i fell in love with a girl 3 years ago, she had a boyfriend so i tried to move on and forget her and i couldnt.
a year ago we started talking everyday and for several hours and we got real close.So after a while i called her and told her that i am in love with you and i know that nothing can happen between us because of your boyfriend and it really really hurts me not to be your boyfriend and show you how much i love you so i think we should stop talking to each other because i cant live like this crying almost every night thinking of you. She told me that its going to be the hardest thing she has ever done to stop talking to me and that i am the greatest person she ever known and shes very sorry that shes just causing me so much pain without being able to do anything about it and said will do anything to make me feel better.
So its been 2 months now with no contact at all and i still think about her A LOT still feel the pain and a few nights i dont sleep at all and the other day i was asking her best friend hows she doing and if she is mad at me, she told me that she good and shes feeling sorry for me, so i lied and told her that am good and let her stop worrying about me but she said that i should tell her myself.
Should i call her? even for a few minutes? And i dont want to get in contact with her just a small call :(
i really really miss her and i just want to know how is she doing and ask about her also i dont want her to be mad at me and thats one of reasons that i havent called her yet.
one other thing when we agreed that we shouldnt talk to each other i told her to block and delete me on MSN. she agreed on the blocking part but not on the deleting coz she said that she cant do that and maybe we started talking again in other words she said who knows what happens.
so my question is why does she come online sometimes as if she is reminding me of her existence? why does she unblock and block me again just to let me see her sign in and read her statues?
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