i've been having these panic/anxiety attacks whenever i have to speak in public. whether it be making a speech in front of a class or just reading aloud in class. i never used to be like this. it all started in 7th grade when i had to take a speech class. i don't what happened but all of a sudden i began to get these attacks. nobody made fun of me or anything, the attacks just came on. i always used be very outgoing and outspoken and had no problem at all speaking in front of people. what happens is i begin reading something, then my heart starts pounding, my whole body starts shaking, then i start reading so fast that i stop breathing, then i feel like i'm gonna pass out(i almost did once.) one time in 11th grade my english teacher decided we would have to write up a resume and present a speech and powerpoint to the class, just from seeing the words "oral report", "presentation", and "speech" i started freaking out. then when we were going over what we were supposed to do for the project i began to have an attack. it was the same as if he had called on me to read aloud, my heart started pounding, my whole body was shaking, and i felt like i was gonna pass out. also when i have to read aloud in class when i start reading so fast that i can't breathe i do this coughing thing where i cough exactly three times(i don't know why i do it). and these attacks have been affecting my school work. that project for english class i never did, the only thing i did was write up a resume. i mean my grades aren't so bad i still get a's and b's but i used to get straight a's. the only thing i don't have a problem with is if i have to speak in front of small groups, about 8 people tops. also after i have to read, if the class takes notes, my friends have to write them down for me because when i'm finished reading my hands shake so bad that i can't even write my own name. i don't know what to do. i figure i'm going to talk with my mother and see what she says but i wanted to know if anybody else has advice or is having the same problem. i just wanna be my oldself again. i mean in 4th grade i had to make a speech about Muhammad Ali in front of a crowded gym(i'm talkin bleechers were full, almost no seats left and the gym was huge), and i had no problem with it at all. i used to be the type of person that was the class clown and was very charismatic with anything.
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